Desired

I’m currently feeling:
Luxurious.

My thoughts creating this feeling :
I had a lovely relaxed day yesterday. Got everything I intended done minding time for reading, time to redo my nails and spend a couple of hours catching up on SOSI and, baking. This morning I have to myself and we are going out this evening to a formal dinner. I have taken time during my morning routine, luxuriated in a long shower whilst preparing my body with oils and scent. I have pulled out several dress options and decided what jewellry to wear. Even though I am spending the day time running errands and completing todays tasks, I am wearing new, black underwear that have gold threads running through. No one can see it, but I know they look gorgeous and they make me feel luxurious and sexy.

My desired feeling:
Desired.

Thoughts to practice to create my desired feeling:
C’s exwife will be at this event and I have always felt inferior despite the fact we’ve been married longer than they ever were. I am not as clever as she is and sometimes I think I over compare myself. I am a lot younger, taller and look completely different but somehow I always manage to feel second best. I have every intention of looking and feeling fabulous but I want to be assured C’s eyes and attention are on me not her. Not helped by the fact her husband won’t be there to keep her in check and once she’s had a few glasses of wine she forgets which one she’s married to. I am pretty sure she contacts C via whatsapp or similar on the quiet, he tends to hide his phone and I’ve seen photos of them at events where he’s not mentioned her being there, but pretty sure she’d have contacted him about going. I need to manage my thoughts and behaviors around this and be the perfect companion so he doesn’t feel the need to go anywhere near her.

I’ll show up on purpose in my dress, body language and presentation by:
This evening I will wear a full, formal dress and jewellry, with heels. My intention is to look amazing and be fantastic company and not worry about C’s exwife being there. If he does talk to her I will control my jealousy and at least pretend I’m not bothered by it.

I will show up for myself by:
Eating a light, healthy lunch and spending quality time on my own thi’s marin’s. I will have time to do more SOSI and more reading ahead of getting ready for this evening.

I will show up for my extraordinary goal by:
I have assigned one task for today which shouldn’t take long to complete.

I will upgrade my surroundings by:
Replacing the roses in my vase, and buying fresh fruit for the week ahead from the farmers market.

Today I am:
Managing my mind and luxuriating.

Today I am grateful for:
Having the morning to myself and the rest of the day to relax and prepare for this evening.