Serene

I’m currently feeling:
Frustrated.

My thoughts creating this feeling :
In order to sit the exams at the end of my course I need to download some software onto my laptop. My work laptop won’t let me do it because of firewalls and security. I understand that but given this is a course work have sent me on with their preferred supplier and other people have done this course before, I would have thought it should have been allowed. The response was I would have to download it da te a home device. I kicked off about how it was inappropriate to expect me to do that. I would also mean I would have to work from home those 2 days. That hasn’t gone down well with C when I said he wouldn’t be able to work during those times. The company setting the exam have made it almost impossible for anyone to be able to do it. And work have been stubbornly ridiculous in not allowing it for work related courses. I’m more stressed over getting the set up right than I am over sitting the exam.

My desired feeling:
Serene.

Thoughts to practice to create my desired feeling:
It will be what it is and if I can’t get the software to work and the proctor isn’t satisfied with my set up at home and doesn’t allow me to sit the exams then I shall have to formally complain to bothe them for making it overly difficult, and to my Director, who happens to be the head of Digital Services for not allowing the software installs and preventing me completing a course he sent me on.

I’ll show up on purpose in my dress, body language and presentation by:
keeping on the dress and skirt theme but first skirt of the week. Carmel coloured, lous, wool type paired with black top. Looks very chic and elegant. Gold jewellry as highlights. Black knee high boots. Really stepping into this person and how clothes can influence how you feel and hold yourself. Definitely been more feminine and elegant this week.

I will show up for myself by:
Maintaining the dress and skirt week. Despite the weather turning wet and wily, and sometimes cold too.

I will show up for my extraordinary goal by:
Drawing up a list of information people might find useful when approached by the press about recruiting new ringers.

I will upgrade my surroundings by:
Clearing my home study desk in time for my first exam on Monday morning.

Today I am:
Seriously contemplating starting to use my full name more often.

Today I am grateful for:
Having completed several unscheduled tasks last night just to clear my email in box of anything urgent. Less to do tonight instead.