Abandon

I’m currently feeling:
Sexy.

My thoughts creating this feeling :
It’s amazing what the right clothes and jewellry can do to someone’s sellf-esteem and overall sense of being. Having a better understanding of my colour palette has certainly lifted my sense of awareness of what will work well. The clothes I’ve picked for today, aside from being my favourite colour anyway, are bang on my colour palette and I think, really do look good on me. my blouse is fitted and accentuates my bust, and levels itself to be slightly more open, giving my plunge bra opportunity to do its thing. I ordered some new jewellry which arrived yesterday. Amongst it was a solid, gold cuff bracelet. I’ve never worn anything like that before but having some chunkier jewellry has set the outfit off well. The whole ensamble is making me feel very sexy and daring, but confidently owning it. And not worrying about what anyone else thinks.

My desired feeling:
Abandon.

Thoughts to practice to create my desired feeling:
I really don’t want to be bothered what anyone else thinks. I want to be unapologetically me. I want to regain some of my feelings, emotions, self assurance and sexiness from my youth. The very things that attracted my husband in the first place. Call it premenopausal, or whatever. I want to be me and not have to be concerned about what anyone might think

I’ll show up on purpose in my dress, body language and presentation by:
So, my outifit is burgundy based. Burgundy trousers with a tight fitting patterned blouse, almost bursting at the bust, giving a hint of an escape for freedom. Wearing one of my new cutt bracelets, dangling gold earrings and a simple star necklace. This is making me feel sexy and confident, and a little darling. I’m going to wear red lipstick to go with it. It’s all making me sit more upright. I feel confident to tackle any problems today.

I will show up for myself by:
Not succuming to the junk food today. Yesterday I had a bit of a carb load. I had my SW breakfast and lunch with me but went over the shop and bought a massive bag of crisps and also ate a pack of mini cheddars. Ineither needed them or particularly wanted them. I just felt the desire to shove my face full of junk.

I will show up for my extraordinary goal by:
I tidied up emails last night and asa result, everything left requires me to do something. Tonight I will add each one as a scheduled task and allocate time to complete them and close them off.

I will upgrade my surroundings by:
Trying out my new jewellery for size. Its chunkier than I am used to so it may take some getting used to.

Today I am:
On fire.

Today I am grateful for:
Inspiration to try new things and embrace how I feel and think with abandon, not giving into convention, or what anyone else has to say about it. I am becoming me again, and I like it.