Decisive

I’m currently feeling:
Undecided.

My thoughts creating this feeling :
I hadn’t planned my clothes out for today ahead of time so stood, staring vito the cupboard. I looked at several different tops before making my mind up. I have a free day today and can’t make up my mind what to do. I will go into town later but I also want to go to the outlet shopping centre, but know I’ll only end up buying clothes and things for me I don’t need. I want to do some SOSI work but C will be holding training sessions on Zoom so I don’t want to put him off or get in his way. I need to buy christmas gifts but don’t know what to get or for whom.

My desired feeling:
Decisive.

Thoughts to practice to create my desired feeling:
Why do I think I want to go to the shopping outlet? Probably because I want to buy a clutch purse and know there’s a good bag shop there. What else would I buy that’s not for me? Probably very little. As a family we’re agreed not to buy gifts for each other. I only really need to buy for C and R but they are so niche to buy for I wouldn’t get anything from there. Is it worth the trip? Probably not. Ok. Don’t go. Decision made. Can I do SOSI work on another device? Not sure. Find log in details and try on tablet. If not move laptop into lounge. Boom. Decision made.

I’ll show up on purpose in my dress, body language and presentation by:
Due to indecisiveness, today’s outfit is pretty basic. Jeans and jumper. Its turning cooler so needed something to keep the warm as he won’t have the heating on during the day. Basic jewellry. comfy boots, coat and may wear my hat when I go into town. Not particularly elegant or sexy, but a bit more feminine than some of my other chunky jumpers. Feeling pretty basic today.

I will show up for myself by:
I will do some SOSI work at some point today, even if I can only squeeze it in between C’s calls. I feel I haven’t done any in ages and a little out of it.

I will show up for my extraordinary goal by:
Starting to map out ideas for next years word of the year. I keep thinking of things but I need to write them down so I don’t forget.

I will upgrade my surroundings by:
Buy some fresh flowers. Haven’t had any new ones for three weeks and keep looking at the dying ones in despair.

Today I am:
Not letting my indecisiveness cloud my day. Maybe it’s better to let the day, and decisions unfold by themselves.

Today I am grateful for:
The freedom of choice even if it’s hard to know what choice to make, or even when we sometimes make a bad choice. Sometimes choices are hard, it feels like we are being challenged or tested, but a choice still has to be made. One the doice is made, it’s the decision after that which dictates what happens next.