Loving

I’m currently feeling:
Grateful.

My thoughts creating this feeling :
I had myself a lovely day yesterday. I went shopping by myself and bought some remaining christmas gifts, but also treated myself to save sexy Anne Summers lingerie, and some champagne truffle chocolates, and a couple of jumpers al a Princess of Wales style. As I was walking home the Anne Summers boag split and one of the items fell on the ground, a youg man walking the opposite direction pointed it out and rushed to pick the item up as he could see I was fully Laden. Little did he realise he was picking up a pair of sexy knickers! I hope that made his day! In the evening C and I went to Glow, the light show at our local RHS garden. It was even more magical because the layer of snow added extra sparkle. Half way round C decided we should try the mulled wine and mince pies. They were delicious and perfect for warming up again. At the end we had a look around the gift shop, although didn’t buy anything, but did head to the cafe for a Baileys hot chocolate and honeycomb tiffin to round off the evening. I thoroughly enjoyed it and was glad C entered into the spirit of it.

My desired feeling:
Loving.

Thoughts to practice to create my desired feeling:
Today we pick R up fromkingston after she finishes work to bring her back here ready for my Dad’s birthday gathering an Sunday. The trains are on strike and she doesn’t finish work until 6pm so we’ll drive down there ready for when she’s finished. She’s booked us cin at her local chinese restaurant for dinner before we travel back. She’s tried to take us there before but it’s either been closed or they were only doing take away. I am cousicious that we don’t talk as much as we used to. We used to have a facetiane call every two weeks but that seemed to have stopped for some reason. We used to have silly emogi conversations on WhatsApp but that’s stopped too. I have been aware that when I send her messages she either doesn’t reply at all, or takes ages then is very short and clipped responses, yet when C messages she responds with fuller answers and usually fairly quickly. I don’t really know how to bridge that void again and get her to be more communicative. When we see her she is usually clatty and I can get answers from her. I’m hoping if I remain loving and available she’ll come round eventually.

I’ll show up on purpose in my dress, body language and presentation by:
I’m baking my Dad’s birthday cake this morning so I need to be wearing something that doesn’t create fluff everywhere. Then we’re spending 4 hours in the car later there and back, so want to be warm and comfortable. Jeans, tshirt and jumper seems the practical solution. Basic jewellry so it doesn’t get in the way whilst I’m baking and decorating the cake. Happy, open and loving when I see R later.

I will show up for myself by:
Using Charm the Room skills to make R feel loved, safe and happy.

I will show up for my extraordinary goal by:
Not answering any emails or getting involved in any ringing activities today.

I will upgrade my surroundings by:
I’ll look at my outfit her tovarious gathering and apply some matching nail varnish. I haven’t worn nail varnish for about two weeks to give my nails a breather. So it will be nice to get glammed up.

Today I am:
Family orientated.

Today I am grateful for:
R wanting to come home for what will only be a few hours to spend time with her wider family and celebrate her Grandads birthday.