Celebratory

I’m currently feeling:
Annoyed.

My thoughts creating this feeling :
A few weeks ago I was asked if I wanted to ring in a peal attempt yesterday. It was a couple of days before I responded to say I’d be happy to ring but could they confirm asap they still wanted me. I hadn’t heard back so assumed I wasn’t required. I got a phone call yesterday morning asking if I was on my way. I replied saying I hadn’t heard back so assumed I wasn’t needed. They said they were sure they had replied. I triple checked all of email boxes and there was no  response. So why do I feel like the bad one in this?   I don’t like letting people down but in this case, I hadn’t received confirmation.

My desired feeling:
Celebratory.

Thoughts to practice to create my desired feeling:
We have been invited to ring a quarter peal for someone’s 70th birthday and he invited is to join him, the other ringers and other friends for a meal afterwards. Its someone we’ve rung a few times with but wouldn’t necessarily put them in the best buddy category.  He kind of reminds me of my Grandad a bit, small, bustly, friendly. Maybe thats why I like him. Old school polite. Smiley. Looking forward to, hopefully successfully scoring the quarter peal, then having a pleasant meal out afterwards. Got the rest of the day before then to get our food shopping done, practice the method for later on the computer and relax a bit.

I’ll show up on purpose in my dress, body language and presentation by:
Practical for ringing in later but a bit nicer than tshirt. Jeans, but with a blue and white striped, cowl necked top. Basic jewellry so it doesn’t get in the way ringing. Feeling relaxed, confident and ready.

I will show up for myself by:
Taking care with what I eat from here on. My word of the year for 2023 is Health. Part of that will be around diet. I have already started looking at a mediterranean style diet that I think I could enjoy, provided I could get used to eating tomatoes. We have various events still involving eating out and I am trying to choose better options, even though that’s not always possible.

I will show up for my extraordinary goal by:
I have signed up for the next SOSI workshop entitled Live like an Editor. This will help determine how to make changes towards my EG, in small, managable chunks, but that progress towards it.

I will upgrade my surroundings by:
My study desk space was used as a dumping ground for everything that was moved out of the lounge when C’s other children came on Tuesday. I need to get back to my computer but to do so will require moving all the stuff again, but I don’t want it all put back in the lounge getting in the way there again. I’d like C to go through it and put it away. It’s all his junk.

Today I am:
Determined to be happy.

Today I am grateful for:
The books I received as gifts, or was lent to read. Yesterday I managed to read pretty much a whole book in one day. I had started it the day before and got about 72 pages in, then finished it yesterday. Reading more is something I want to do  next year so have downloaded an App that keeps track of your reading and makes suggestions based on things you’ve read. You can set yourself reading challenges like how many books to read in a year.  I want to set myself a target for 2023 so don’t want to start reading something new now otherwise it won’t count for next year.