Controlled

I’m currently feeling:
Wrenched.

My thoughts creating this feeling :
First day back at work today after the best part of 2 weeks off over the Christmas break. Despite having everything prepared and ready, it was a bit of a wrench when the alarm went off at bam and I knew I couldn’t just roll over and ignore it. Everything started to get back to normal yesterday with bellringing practice at the Cathedral, followed by the pub. I don’t drink but it just means a late night. I know this next couple of weeks is going to be hard work as we go live with my first major project delivery.

My desired feeling:
Controlled.

Thoughts to practice to create my desired feeling:
I do think this first week back will be a slow burner. For me its only a 3 day week, but even so. Several others are only just returning from leave and getting back into the swing of things. Very few meetings will be purposeful as nothing will have been done over the holiday period, so nothing to report on. If Rebecca is in today we’ll no doubt have a good catch up session.

I’ll show up on purpose in my dress, body language and presentation by:
I found my black work trousers, which had been hiding for a couple of mouthsat the bottom of a pile of other clothes. Paired them will a bright orange linen top. Pearl bracelet C bought me for Christmas, pearl drop earrings and mid length pearl necklace. Black boots with heel. Ready to show up with purpose and make sure everything is in place to kick off the project proper now.

I will show up for myself by:
I have preprepared breakfast and lunch so I can stick to eating healthily. I shall have my litre bottle of water to get through the day, and should have time for a lunchtime walk.

I will show up for my extraordinary goal by:
I need to respond to e a couple of emails this evening but other than that I don’t need to do too much. Ride out the next few days to get to a point at the weekend to resign, or give notice from one of my jobs.

I will upgrade my surroundings by:
Taking a walk around the hospital site for the first time this year.

Today I am:
Back to the grind.

Today I am grateful for:
At least I have a job to go to. Many don’t, or can’t even if they wanted to. At least it gives me something to do and keep my brain and social skills active. It also provides my spending money, which on the whole I cando what I like with.