Convivial

I’m currently feeling:
Disappointed.

My thoughts creating this feeling :
I’ve been eating a mediterranean cinspired diet all week. Lunches were couscous with various salad, chickpeas, roasted tomatoes etc. Snacking was extremely healthy, apples, bananas, even a couple of boiled eggs. Evening meals have all been SW friendly, small portions, and mediterranean inspired. I got on the scales of doom this morning and I hadn’t shifted so much as half a pound. I know losing weight is a long term thing and you shouldn’t take one weeks figures in isolation but even so, not to have shifted at all after cutting out all the biscuits from Christmas, I hoped to have lost something. Especially as we have a weekend of eating out ahead of us.

My desired feeling:
Convivial.

Thoughts to practice to create my desired feeling:
We have a weekend away with friends, ringing. For once C’s exwife won’t be there so I won’t have to feel concerned about her trying to find ways to corner him. I’m looking forward to some very good ringing, these people are amongst the experts where I’m one of the least competent. Good company, most who are going are really friendly and good fun. there is one guy who is a pain. He only wants to ring certain things on certain bells at certain towers, then promptly Messes it up. He thinks he’s interesting and funny, when in realins he’s boring and dull, no one wants to sit next to him at dinner. He always has some issue meaning the menu’s at our lunches and dinners aren’t quite suitable, so he’ll order something, then take a mouthful and declare he can’t eat it. His wife is always making excuses for him and apologising her him. To be harvest, I don’t know why he bothers coming. Anyway, everyone else is good to hang out with.

I’ll show up on purpose in my dress, body language and presentation by:
This weekend needs to be all about practical and warmth, without getting too hot whilst ringing. Lots of ringing in cold, draughty churches and hanging about in cold, windy and dark church yards. Black jeans and orange patterned jumper today. I am only taking one set of basic jewellry: my Gibraltar bracelet, birthstones necklace and diamond stud earrings. Will be good to see people we haven’t seen since the summer so looking forward to catching up and making merry.

I will show up for myself by:
Using Charm the Room skills to enjoy peoples company and relax into friendly chat. Ringing methods I haven’t rung probably since last summer with this group, so making sure I’ve done my homework. Joining in doing my bit and having a good time.

I will show up for my extraordinary goal by:
Chatting with some key people who will be there who will have a vote in September when it comes to my nomination for Deputy President of the Central Council. Will be good to get them on side.

I will upgrade my surroundings by:
We will be travelling down to Taunton, staying in a hotel and eating out for lundl and curry for dinner tonight. Good scenery, good friends and good food.

Today I am:
Embracing all the things I have learned from Tonya about being the person of my future. Athough I won’t get to be particularly glamorous this weekend I will still level up my outfits, be charming and fun, eat well and enjoy others’ company. I can be feminine and elegant in what I say and do. I can make better, healthier food and drink choices and work towards my EG of spending more time doing things I want to, experiencing new places, and doing less of the things I feel obliged to do.

Today I am grateful for:
This group of friends who meet up a few times a year, who come from all over the country to get together to share a hobby without pretention or judgement (except C’s exwife). Who have a laugh and get down to serious ringing. Who mostly all muck in and ring every tower, every time. Those who have organised the towers to ring at, the hotel to stay at and the venues to eat at.