I’m currently feeling:
Regret.

My thoughts creating this feeling:
Well, that’s probably too strong a word. Mild regret or disappointment may be more accurate. I didn’t get the two documents written yesterday that I’d hoped to whilst C was out. Instead, I went shopping. Couldn’t find the navy bra set in Ann Summers I’d seen before, and ended up buying two pairs of trousers and a top in New Look instead. When I got back home I sat on the sofa, read for a while, had a nap then carried on reading until I’d finished the book. By that time C was come, we had lunch then went ringing. Part of me feels I did what I wanted/needed to do so don’t beat myself up about it. Part of me feels I still have to get it done and I’m running out of time.

My desired feeling:
Productive.

Thoughts to practice to create my desired feeling:
1 do have a lot to get done today. ringing this morning. A massive pile of ironing as it hasn’t been done for a couple of weeks as we weren’t here. Food prep for work for the week ahead. Let some visiting rusers in so they can practice their competition piece. Then chair a meeting this evening it anyone bothers showing up.

I’ll show up on purpose in my dress, body language and presentation by:
It’s very cold out. In The minus numbers. Grey jeans, thick bright red nordic style jumper (which I may regret later as I’d get hot during ringing and as a woman of a certain age if I get a hot flush). Thick walking socks. Basic jewellry suitable for ruiging and housework. I need to get todays activities done, there is no choice So I may as well do it positively and relish in their completion. Who knows I may even have time squeeze in at least one of the documents I need to get written.

I will show up for myself by:
Getting all the ironing out of the way. It is really quite pleasing to see an empty chair even if only for a few days.

I will show up for my extraordinary goal by:
Reminding people at this evenings weating that I will not be standing as Comms Officer come May, so they’ll have to find someone else and send the nominations in soon.

I will upgrade my surroundings by:
I bought two new shades of nail varnish yesterday and some nail strengthener. I haven’t worn nail varish for several weeks so time to try them out.

Today I am:
Determined.

Today I am grateful for:
Warm clothes on a very cold day. As we walk into town we pass people sleeping rough, huddled under layers of sleeping bags, coats, anything they can get hold of to keep warm.