Relief

I’m currently feeling:
Anxious.

My thoughts creating this feeling:
Very busy week ahead with lots of training to deliver; on the assumption all the systems work ok. Will need to make a decision on whether to do something one way for the time being whilst a fix is being sorted, but will result on extra pressure on another system, but we can’t afford to wait months for a solution. Yet again clinical go live has been pushed back,

My desired feeling:
Relief.

Thoughts to practice to create my desired feeling:
I want the systems to work, the training to go smoothly and for everything else to just slot into place. This project should have gone fully live in October but has only partially gone live because of issues uncovered since. I am actually loosing all interest in it. Go live, don’t go live, I no longer have any enthusiasm. We’ll end up wasting all the external funding on small fry stuff without making any impact on scanning at all at this rate.

I’ll show up on purpose in my dress, body language and presentation by:
Its below freezing and foggy today so I’m keeping warm with black trousers and a cream nordic jumper. Thick socks and boots. Gibraltar bracelet, Star necklace and teardrop diamond earrings. Practical for walking backwards and forwards for training, meeting and a tin can of an office that will be freezing cold.

I will show up for myself by:
Being positive about the day and its outcomes. If it doesn’t work or go as expected I’m not going to let it bother me. I can’t be responsible for issives created by others.

I will show up for my extraordinary goal by:
Sending out the Action Log and doodlepoll following last nights meeting. I was quite forceful in remaining people its called a working group for a reason. It doesn’t mean I get to do all the work. One person tried to get me to write something for their local press, so I told them to do it. I also reminded them I’m not carrying on after May and will not be guilt tripped wie staying on because they couldn’t find anyone else.

I will upgrade my surroundings by:
Wrapping up in a lovely scart so I can brare the cold.

Today I am:
Forceful.

Today I am grateful for:
Hawing Lada weekend of mostly success. Two things didn’t get done but that time was well spent doing things I needed to do rather than had to do.