Astute

I’m currently feeling:
Curious.

My thoughts creating this feeling:
I had a very strange dream last night. I drempt C and I were snuggled up in a big double bed when he whispers he wants a divorce, climbs out of the bed we’re in and into another bed in the same room with a much older woman. I mean wrinkly old. It wasn’t his ex-wife. No idea who she was. And of course I woke up before anything else happened. Over the last month or so I’ve been having very weird dreams, usually very early morning and quite strange. I’ve not been one for dreaming in the past, or if I had I never remembered them the next day. I’m often semi-awake too, or so it seems. I’m often in the dream and outside of it watching. I’d be curious to know what it could mean. I told C about it and all he said was “How bizare”.

My desired feeling:
Astute.

My thoughts creating this feeling:
Unfortunately I didn’t get around to several thing’s yesterday. There were emanis that needed answering and a couple of meetings to arrange. Either C was on the computer or I was engrossed in something else. By the time the computer was free it was too late in the evening to start working again. However, I do need to get on top of it over the next couple of days, but again, we’re out tonight and Tuesday night. I need to get back to scheduling things and sticking to it. I need to be none astute to whats going on in the ringing community and keep up to speed with general trains of thought and comment.

I’ll show up on purpose in my dress, body language and presentation by:
Wearing burgundy three quarter length trousers and black polo neck jumper, with knee high black boots. My Miliana jewellry consisting of knotted gold bracelet, rose quartz necklace and ringed dangly earnings. I put some nail varnish on last night which matches the trousers. Feminine outfit, feminine outlook for the day.

I will show up for myself by:
Booking a day’s annual leave for a couple of weeks time so we can see R on her day off and take her out for the day somewhere.

I will show up for my extraordinary goal by:
At least clearing my runging email box out of things that don’t need a response to, even if I don’t get as far as responding or writing anything else today.

I will upgrade my surroundings by:
Getting out at lunchtime for a walk around the hospital site, getting some exercise and fresh air.

Today I am:
Organised.

Today I am grateful for:
Having had a video call with Ryesterday. We haven’t seen or spoken properly since Christmas. We’ve chatted via text but it’s much better to see her face and see for myself she’s ok.