Unperturbed

I’m currently feeling:
Dynamic.

My thoughts creating this feeling:
I really enjoyed my day yesterday. Achieved so much and got most of the things on my task list done. Three short pieces I couldn’t get finished off because C was on the other computer all day. However, there were other things that cropped up that I was able to get done. I even managed time to bake a cake, read, and take a nap!

My desired feeling:
Unperturbed.

My thoughts creating this feeling:
C has an online meeting this morning, so I’ll go into town to do some shopping and buy us some lunch. This afternoon we have a face to face management meeting which will be my last in one of my roles although I aim to retain the other that will entitle me to still attend these meetings. I wonder if it will be managed in the same style as last time, groups of tables where district officers were split up, as were the several husband and wife combos. Some people felt it worked better that way and they were more able to voice their thoughts in smaller groups. I also think there was still an awful lot unsaid as some were not comfortable speaking in front of others. Personnally, I didn’t have a problem either way, as I will say what I need to say if I feel it contributes or warrants it. Again though, there are a couple of people at these meetings I don’t fully feel comfortable around because they seek to get their own way and throw their toys out of the pram when they don’t, or are challenged to justify their actions or proposals. I’m never sure what their agenda is.

I’ll show up on purpose in my dress, body language and presentation by:
Going to be spending the afternoon in a church hall which always starts of really chilly and I never seem to be able to warm up in. So, jeans and a blue and white cowl neck jumper. Gibraltar bracelet, birthstones necklace and Tiffany teardrop stud earrings. Comfortable, warm and practical.

I will show up for myself by:
Going for a walk into town, listening to a podcast, buying only things that are necessary.

I will show up for my extraordinary goal by:
Attending this afternoon’s meeting open mindedly, resolving to only speak if required to do so. Remaining dispassionate and unpreturbed.

I will upgrade my surroundings by:
Time for flowers update. The market stall I buy them from have fabulous displays, choice and ideas. On the whole I buy fresh flowers every two weeks and they usually just about last that long, so I consider them good value for money, even though they are a bit more expensive than supermarket bunches. Every time, I get to choose what I want based on my mood and what they have available/in season. I usually buy three different sorts, one of which is greenery or twigs to give contrast and shape. I’m no good at flower arranging but it doesn’t really matter. I enjoy the colours, shapes and scents.

Today I am:
Homely.

Today I am grateful for:
The tips and tricks I am learning through SOSI and applying to my everyday life. Managing my time better. Looking after and learning to love myself better. Dealing with triggers and boundaries better, and really looking into the woman I am and want to be and curating that.