Prepared

I’m currently feeling:
Relieved.

My thoughts creating this feeling:
Yesterday’s meeting went ok. One of the people who trigger me most wasn’t there so that was half the battle over to start with. The rest of the meeting went Ok. It was definitely cast as my last one in the role of Comms Officer. So as of May I will no longer have that job. This clears the way perfectly for my next plan. A group of 10 of us went to the pub afterward. which did vicdude are of the others I’m never sure about and ended up sitting next to each other and having quite a sensible conversation. I was still quite careful what I did and didn’t say though.

My desired feeling:
Prepared.

My thoughts creating this feeling:
Lots of ringing things on today. Normal morning service ringing, letting some visiting ringers in to practice their competition piece, then our own practice. In between I need to get the ironing done and my food prep for the week ahead done, and decide my clothes for work for the next few days at least. Between the two lots of ringing this afternoon is the Dean’s last service which I think C wants to attend, so I may well have to sit through that. I’m not a fan of church services having been force fed them as a youngster by parents who wouldn’t attend themselves, just wanted us out of the way for a couple of hours. I think almost every self-proclaimed Christian I’ve ever met has also been the most hypocritical person I’ve ever met when it comes to putting it into practice. However, C was brought up in the church and until the Dean changed the service times used to want to attend regularly, so I usually went along to support him, but never joined in with communion or the religious affirmations.

I’ll show up on purpose in my dress, body language and presentation by:
Another day of having to be practical rather than elegant. Dark green jeans and black and while speckled top comfortable for ringing in. Basic jewellry so it doesn’t get in the way: Gibraltar bracelet, birthstones necklace and diamond stud earrings. Still able to present as keen and supportive.

I will show up for myself by:
Making a note of the Clinique face wash and moisturisers from the various sample that were in my Advent Calendar I prefer, as they are starting to run out now. That way I can purchase the full sized versions once they’ve all run out.

I will show up for my extraordinary goal by:
Updating my exit plan now the Comms Officer role is definitely out. Can now switch focus to gathering support for my Deputy President nomination.

I will upgrade my surroundings by:
Getting the croning done and put away, clearing the pile on the arm chair for a few days at least.

Today I am:
Going with the flow.

Today I am grateful for:
Having had opportunities to take on different voluntary roles and experience different levels of the bellringing organisation. I’m not completely done yet but feel my Essex affiliation is grinding down.