Comfortable

I’m currently feeling:
Shallow.

My thoughts creating this feeling:
Although I had a lovely day out yesterday with R in London, I felt rather disappointed at a couple of aspects. Firstly, R seemed at ease chatting with C about various things, to the point most of the time I was trailing behind not included or totally invisible, or they would actually stop talking when I caught up. At times when it was just me and R together, she got her phone out and I couldn’t think of any thing to engage her in conversation with, so I sat staring into space whilst she was on her phone actively ignoring me. Secondly, my own daughter won’t let me take a photo of her, she always turns her back or walks off. Thirdly, I got a bit annoyed there was nothing worth buying in the gift shops and when I did spot something I wanted to buy, they’d both walked ahead talking, so I couldn’t stop in the shop to have a look.

My desired feeling:
Comfortable.

My thoughts creating this feeling:
I have an all day coaching workshop today, on my non-working day but I’ll let it slide as it’s something I want to do and I suppose it’s not really work. That means sitting at the laptop plugged in to a pair of headphones all day. We’ll have breaks I’m sure but I’ll be sat down for a large portion of it This afternoon I have my ECG at the doctors, so I’ll probably walk there as parking is rubbish. Then I havea quick call with someone about local PR things. That shouldn’t take long, then the rest of the evening is free.

I’ll show up on purpose in my dress, body language and presentation by:
If I’m going to be sat down most of the day I want to be comfortable, so jeans, tshirt and jumper. Nothing very feminine or elegant about it, but it reflects my current mood I suppose. I will need to be attentive and engaged though, so won’t let it drag me down.

I will show up for myself by:
Starting the twice daily blood pressure monitoring that I have to submit to the GP after a week.

I will show up for my extraordinary goal by:
Printing off some useful conducting tips ahead of tomorrow’s training morning and refreshing myself what I’m supposed to be doing.

I will upgrade my surroundings by:
Clearing out some inbox junk that’s accumulated over the last few days and responding to some messages.

Today I am:
Learning.

Today I am grateful for:
Modern technology meaning I can do a course online from the comfort of my own home.