Reassured

I’m currently feeling:
Anxious.

My thoughts creating this feeling:
Mildly anxious about going back to the office today after over a week off. Amazing how we can quickly adjust to being in a relaxed mode on holiday yet it takes longer to get back to work and normal routine afterwards. Needless to say I was awake at ridiculous o’clock this morning. I don’t particularly have anything to be anxious about. My project was at a steady state waiting for something else to be fixed before we could go live. New prices of work were starting to present themselves meaning new and interesting things to get involved with. I have deliberately not logged in at all whilst I’ve been off. I used to do that but found I would get frustrated when I couldn’t then resolve things. Also, I’m now very much putting boundaries between work and home life, otherwise it could be all consuming. I’ve got enough going on.

My desired feeling:
Reassured.

My thoughts creating this feeling:
I’m sure nothing major has happened otherwise I would have been contacted via other means. And besides, I’m no longer an operational manager therefore most of what could happen sits with others now. I can offer support, experience and help if required.

I have several emails to respond to and more filming/press requests to deal with when I get home. I’ve been putting them off for a few days but need to keep the momentum going to keep the press engaged. They’ll lose interest in the next week or two anyway. Then I have Bell Sunday to crack on with.

I’ll show up on purpose in my dress, body language and presentation by:
Slight change to planned outfit as its below freezing this morning. Black trousers and camel coloured polo neck jumper. Long length necklace, Gibraltar bracelet and cuboid diamond earrings. Business like but warm.

I will show up for myself by:
I have packed everything I could possibly want to eat and drink during the day, including snacks. Fruit, granola and yoghurt with extra flaxseed and chai seeds for breakfast. A cholesterol friendly frittata and salad for lunch. Apple and peanut butter dip her shacking later. Plenty of water to drink. I’m actually looking forward to giving myself healthy foods after a week of eating out, even though I tried to make good choices.

I will upgrade my surroundings by:
Getting out for a walk at lunchtime in the fresh air, listening to a podcast.

Today I am:
Returning.

Today I am grateful for:
Friends and colleagues who make going to work more tolerable, entertaining and supportive. We all have each others’ backs and want each other to succeed. A new start for some who may need a bit more help to start with but who will undoubtedly make a great leader.