Calm

I’m currently feeling:
Defiant.

My thoughts creating this feeling:
We went ringing last night to help a younger ringer with a quarter peal in 4 methods he was attempting to call for the first time. We rang for the requisite amount of time with an appropriate number of changes, however rounds featured multiple times when it shouldn’t have and the composition was false. When we stopped ringing C made a remark that seemed a bit flippant at the time but he was sincere and seemed quite annoyed and said he wouldn’t be counting it. The younger ringer left in a hurry under some pretext and didn’t come to the pub afterwards. Ordinarily, I would have wanted to come straight home but agreed to go to the pub as I was aware the others were annoyed/upset about what, and the way C had said. I steered the conversation around several other topics until at the end ore of the others who had been most annoyed raised the subject to discuss whether or not the attempt should be counted or not, given the more relaxed rules around quarters. There was a tense conversation and I think it ended in a “let’s agree to disagree” scenario. At one point I was asked my opinion. I said that if someone who knows about these things tells me it’s false, I won’t count it, however I’m not a conductor so I’d have been none the wiser. In the ened I tried to resolve it by suggesting we have another go as soon as possible after the younger ringer had had a chance to find a true composition and that if he wanted to run it passed C to check then he should. I think we’re going to try again at the weekend. I think I won’t count it because I know its false, however I didn’t agree with how C handled it.

My desired feeling:
Calm.

My thoughts creating this feeling:
Have a team away day today although it’s not away anywhere. Have helped my boss plan and run the day and will help facilitate it. Hoping it will go well and everyone gets some benefits and focus out of it.

I have a meeting this evening about ringing filming plans which seem to be going ok. Hopefully that won’t take long. Then I have a long weekend off ahead. Not back to work until next Tuesday. Looking forward to relaxing, catching up on a few things and refreshing.

I‘ll show up on purpose in my dress, body language and presentation by:
Snow flurries overnight so very cold. Navy trousers, brig ht pink jumper to keep me awake. Gord cuff bracelet, multi coloured Loop necklace and teardrop diamond studs. Professional, feminine energy but warm.

I will show up for myself by:
Focussing on health still. Attending another blood test and urine test to submit.

I will upgrade my surroundings by:
Tidying my work desk in case anyone else needs to use it whilst I’m out of the office.

I will show up for my extra ordinary goal by:
Completing the next stage of filming planning and authorising travel expenses.

Today I am:
Strategising.

Today I am grateful for:
Trying to find balance last night, and proposing a way forward to a successful outcome and no hard feelings between people. I was quite the peacemaker I think.