I’m currently feeling:
Indignant.
My thoughts creating this feeling:
Owed better, undeserving of an adverse situation.
I have today off work. C knew that. I reminded him of it last night too. This morning the 6am alarm went off. He’s in charge of alarms as its on his side of the bed. That aside, I didn’t rush to get out of bed. At one point he turned over onto his back which is usually a cue for some kind of closeness, maybe holding hands or even a cuddle. So I moved in, just to hold his hand and he pulled away and said “no”. I turned back over to face away from him and felt somewhat rejected. I lay there for a few minutes then thought “F you then” and got up to have my shower.
My desired feeling:
Proficient.
My thoughts creating this feeling:
I have several tasks I want to complete today and have them all scheduled throughout the day. Some will only take a nunite a two, others will take a while longer and require some detail collation of information. Some will require the main PC just because it’s easy to find therings, so I’ll have to do those cohen C is in the shower or shopping. The rest I can do from my laptop.
I‘ll show up on purpose in my dress, body language and presentation by:
very cold today and C won’t have the heating on during the day so I’ll need to dress to keep warm. Jeans, nordic style jumper, thick socks and big fluffy slippers. Basic jewellry, Gibraltar bracelet, coloured hoop necklace and diamond stud earrings. Functional.
I will show up for myself by:
Not allowing being rejected by C this morning dampen my mood or motivation. Feel like I’m just going to ignore him most of the day.
I will upgrade my surroundings by:
My fingernails have grown very long, which is trine but there’s always a threat of them splitting or breaking, so I’ve taken a preemptive Step and trimmed them to a more practical length. They actually look quite nice, so I think I’ll paint them later.
I will show up for my extra ordinary goal by:
Cracking through todays tasks that are all about promoting ringing. Getting media requests completed. Filming locations and contracts sorted. Meetings arranged. Videos uploaded. Queries answered.
Today I am:
Plowing on.
Today I am grateful for:
Having a couple of days off work to catch up and clear tasks.
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