I’m currently feeling:
Disappointed.
My thoughts creating this feeling:
I used to organise a 3 day ringing course over the Easter school holidays. The course has been running for 30 years now and I looked after it from years 11-19. I’ve maintained support for it all that time, either as a helper, or one year as a Tutor. I decided tutoring a whole group for 3 days wasn’t for me. Over the last few years the course has gradually been going down in quality and range due to the current organisers insistance all tutors must be ART trained. Most of the tutors we used he have are not, and some will not be ART trained. Its not compulsory and we shouldn’t be insisting on it, especially for the higher groups. Anyway, I offered, along with C to be a helper again this year. Usually, we are put in the same group to help, as it makes sense for transport to and from the base and the towers. Our instructions came through yesterday and we are in different groups. Thats not a problem, we’re not joined at the hip, but there is no obvious reason why we should be. Anyway, the rest of the programme seems very sketchy. There are no higher ability groups and nothing in the additional lectures to interest helpers. There seems to be no guest speaker on the Thursday evening and the Friday social seems to be a pub quiz where we’re having to bring our own drinks. C took one look and declared we’re not going then. Fine by me. Itseems the whole programme is very lack lustre. The tutors they have managed to get seen mostly inexperienced, so thats not going to help. At least 2 of them should definitely not be tutoring, having observed them inaction previously. It really seems like no effort has been made at all, which is very disappointing from someone who used to organise it all, and look forward to and enjoy the whole thing. C hasn’t actually been asled to do clothing again this year, although he’s got everything ready anyway.
My desired feeling:
Peaceful.
My thoughts creating this feeling:
Its Easter Sunday. R arrived home just after 8 pm last night having bought herself an indian takeaway enroute, so got herself a plate and drink, and tucked in. She was bright and chatty and stayed with us until gone 11pm then went to bed. She’d presented us with a packet of jaffa cakes and 2 bars of chocolate in leiu of an Easter egg. She’s going to have to come ringing with us this morning and will make 5. Better than nothing on one of the church’s major festivals. We’re going to have a prompt much then heed to Hyde Hall for her to take some photos. Hopefully it will be nice and sunny and there will be plenty of colour. I expect it will be busy though. She’ll head back come save time later, and I have a meeting at 7.30pm. At least we have another day off tomorrow. I’ll use that to do food prep and get ready for 2 days at work then the ringing course.
I‘ll show up on purpose in my dress, body language and presentation by:
Blue jeans and a blue patterned t-shirt. Not sure if I’ll need a jumper yet. Gibraltar bracelet, birthstones necklace and diamond stud earrings. Practical for ringing and walking around Hyde Hall gardens.
I will show up for myself by:
Plenty of exercise and fresh air today. Walk to ringing and back. Walking around Hyde Hall all afternoon, and squeeze in a JWW after R has left.
I will upgrade my surroundings by:
Enjoying Hyde Hall colours and flowers of spring. Hopefully lots of new growth since we were last there. Spending time watching R do her thing with her camera.
I will show up for my extra ordinary goal by:
By picking up the meeting this evening and ensuring all outstanding actions have an owner and time frame for completion.
Today I am:
Having family time.
Today I am grateful for:
R wanting to spend time with us. She has grown into a grounded, well adjusted and confident person. She’s funny, intelligent and thoughtful. Good fun to be around.
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