Invested

I’m currently feeling:
Struggling.

My thoughts creating this feeling:
I really ache across my shoulders and back of my neck. Lots of ringing yesterday morning but not enough, or heavy bells to make me ache that much. I only managed half a JWW yesterday afternoon and even that much was a struggle. This morning it really feels tight. Maybe ringing this morning will loosen things up a bit.

My desired feeling:
Invested.

My thoughts creating this feeling:
Its coming up time to consider reinvesting in SOSI. If I do, I will get access to lots more content but I am conscious I haven’t really done much work lately. However, that may be due to all the ringing projects on the go, which will soon be over, then I’ll have a bit more time. It was doing the SOSI work that started me on the journey of elevating my style and now looking out for my health, I’m thankful for that. But I am also aware some of the content is repetitive, and now I understand the basic concepts, am I capable of continuing on my own. I’m thinking I’d like to do one more year and see what the additional content is, then see what happens after that.

I’ll also need to decide soon whether to invest in JWW as my free trial will end in 30 days time. If I understand correctly, I will get a discounted fee. At the moment I feel it’s something I want to contime with.

Its hard when your other half isn’t interested in anything you do except ringing. He has no idea what SOSI is about and would probably brand it a complete waste of time and money. He sort of gets the JWW but it seems begrudgingly leaves the room when I want to workout. It’s not that he’s not supportive, but he’s not actively, or interestedly supportive.

I‘ll show up on purpose in my dress, body language and presentation by:
Lots more ringing today, and chores. Blue jeans and blue and white tshirt. Usual ringing friendly jewellry. Gibraltar bracelet, birthstones necklace and diamond stud earrings. Purposeful, practical.

I will show up for myself by:
Despite aching, I will have opportunity to do a JWW later so will give it my best shot. It’ll be the final one before my next stage check in on Monday which will open up more new workouts and recipes.

I will upgrade my surroundings by:
Walking into town this morning in glorious sunshine. Getting the pile of ironing done out of the way.

I will show up for my extra ordinary goal by:
I didn’t get to send the questionnaire out yesterday, so must do that today. I don’t think there’s anything else needing my urgent attention.

Today I am:
Committing.

Today I am grateful for:
The SOSI and JWW communities who encourage and support members in times of frustration and celebration. When I posted on the JWW community how I struggled with yesterdays workout, several people commented on how they too sometimes found it hard, but at least I showed up and did something.