Focussed

I’m currently feeling:
Relieved.

My thoughts creating this feeling:
As is often the case, things are never quite as bad as you think they might be. Maybe there’s safety in numbers. Maybe I was at the opposite end of the table to the one person who grinds my gears the most. Actually the most annoying part is the restaurant having mislaid are of our orders somehow. I’d sent a spreadsheet through with 12 listed. I’d booked A table for 12. I planed to cancel are order. The table had only been set up for 10. When I queried it, a very grumpy server said it was because we’d cancelled one meal, and I pouted out that 12 minus 1 equals 11. She said they only had 10 meals on the ticket which she showed me. I asked her to get the preorder deltais up but she said she couldn’t, all she had was the ticket. She begrudingley bought over an extra table and set an extra place. A colleague came over and we went through everyones meals (I’d given them all a ticket with what they’d ordered) and we established where they’d only counted one dish instead of 2. It was all ok in the end. Then a waitress came over to take dessert orders so we said we’d preodered but she didn’t have that information so she’d have to take them all again. We just gave her all the tickets. Whats the point of sending a pre-order if there’ll not going to use it. I went to pay the bill and the grumpy one said it had already been done. Dad had paid the whole bill apparently. I thought he’d gone to the toilet. So that sorted that out and I didn’t have to work out what everyone needed to pay. The cake I’d thrown together seemed to be well received despite it not being one of my best efforts. We went back to HQ for coffee and cake but left around 4-30pm as others were travelling back then and it seemed a good time to go. I needed to be back for a meeting at 7pm anyway.

I logged onto the PC and saw some emails from people who were supposed he be at the meeting saying they couldn’t attend because they’d double booked. Despite having been sent a reminder earlier in the week and the link for the meeting 2 days ago. One email suggested cancelling and rearranging for a couple of weeks time. I replied saying it would have been useful to know before so I didn’t rush to leave a family birthday gathering. Not that that had actually been the case but nearly. That annoyed me. However, it did mean I could relax for the rest of the evening instead.

My desired feeling:
Focussed.

My thoughts creating this feeling:
Events have now quietened down. Life can return to some normality. Today I need to refocus on planning and prepping. Start ofa new week so I’ve planned in all my workouts for the week ahead. I need to meal prep breakfasts and lunches for the week. Lots of ironing to do so I can plan work outfits. Time to refocus on my EG, my self image and who I want to be.

I‘ll show up on purpose in my dress, body language and presentation by:
Burgundy faux leather trousers, orange jumper. Gibraltar bracelet, multistone necklace and diamond stud earrings. Ringable but edgy. Practical but elevated.

I will show up for myself by:
Planning and prepping for the week ahead. Good, healthy, fresh food, lots of water, lots of exercise.

I will upgrade my surroundings by:
Clearing the ironing pile but starting to put winter clothes away and open up summer clothes that have been packed away.

I will show up for my extra ordinary goal by:
There is a consultation meeting this evening that requires some pre-reading. To be fully engaged and participate in the conversation.

Today I am:
Bossing it.

Today I am grateful for:
R coming to visit for the weekend. She gets herself here and back and jours in with whatever. She knows how to respond to grandparents and aunts and uncles and has entertaining stories to share. Can’t wait til next time.