Deeper

I’m currently feeling:
Curious.

My thoughts creating this feeling:
I was reading through some activities to do with my coaching course yesterday and it got me thinking about how I have such an easy life. I can get an education, marry who I want, work or not work, buy things, have a comfortable home, money in the bank, an easy going relationship, good health and am safe. I was reading about equality, discrimination and inclusion and how many other people don’t have that freedom or luxury due to their culture, background or circumstances that put them in difficult situations. I was reading about modern slavery, discrimination, child abuse and how easy it can be for people to get swept up in abuse and drugs and alcohol dependency and how others may take advantage of them. It was quite a tough read and brought my life, as a middle aged, privealleged white person into such contrast. It made me think just how shallow I can be worrying about what outfit to wear, how I’m going to fit in a JWW or what to have for dinner.

My desired feeling:
Deeper.

My thoughts creating this feeling:
I want to start looking into things deeper. I want to build deeper relationships, have deeper understanding and appreciation for the world and people around me. I want to have a deeper connection and compassion for others. I want to learn deeper about things that interest me rather than a basic, surface level knowledge. I want to understand deeper how I can help others.

I‘ll show up on purpose in my dress, body language and presentation by:
Navy trousers and navy patterned blouse. Gibraltar bracelet and matching blue topaz necklace and earrings. Travelling around a bit today between sites so need to be comfortable in the car.

I will show up for myself by:
Continuing cycle 3 of JWW. I mentioned the C yesterday about how I should hear soon about getting a full annual membership for £30 instead of the full price and he said it was a no brainer, so I think he’s happy for me to carry on.

I will upgrade my surroundings by:
Drive to Orsett this morning, then across to Southend main site. The sun is already shining so with sunnies on, it’ll be a nice trip out.

I will show up for my extra ordinary goal by:
Chairing a CCCBR PR workgroup meeting this everring, although there might only be a couple of people present. first one since all the Ring for the King stuff ended.

Today I am:
Investigating.

Today I am grateful for:
The life and liberties I enjoy. Having read what I’d read yesterday, I really should have no complaints of my life.