I’m currently feeling:
Revitalised.
My thoughts creating this feeling:
Ate better food yesterday. Went for a walk at lunchtime in the sunshine. Did a JWW when I got home. Drank plenty of water. Read for a while. Went to bed about 12.30am and somehow managed to get C to have sex for the first time in over 2 months. All very perfunctory but I’ll take what I can get. Slept well and feeling more energised and sexy this morning.
My desired feeling:
Strong.
My thoughts creating this feeling:
Feeling sexy means I dress sexy. It means I want more sex. I want to feel some passion. I want deep kisses. I want my boobs grabbed and fondled. I want touching, flirting, kissing and inappropriate touching at inappropriate times. I want sly looks that could eat me alive. I know I won’t get it though. C isn’t like that all. I can dress and act all sexy and its completely wasted on him. I have to manage my own thoughts around it so as not to be disappointed. There’s no passion in our relationship anymore. It’s barely even a relationship sometimes. We just happen to live in the same house. I only get 2 kisses a day if I’m lucky, pecks on the mouth and if I try to hold the kiss longer he pulls away. He won’t let me touch him even when we do have sex. There’s little foreplay, a quick stroke of the nipples and jabbing at places. Missionary position sex, or sometimes if he’s too tired he’ll manouver me on top to do all the work. I know sex isn’t everything in a relationship but it sure helps build a sense of intimacy and throws a bone at being more than just a housemate.
I‘ll show up on purpose in my dress, body language and presentation by:
Because I’m feeling horny again this morning, although jeans at the bottom, the top is a knitted wrap top, that’s gone a bit baggy so flops forward and open. Boobs on show and looking fine. Chunky jewellry, cuff bracelet. Edgy look.
I will show up for myself by:
Feeling good about myself. Fitting in another JWW and drinking plenty of water.
I will upgrade my surroundings by:
Packing up some more of my winter wardrobe and putting it away.
I will show up for my extra ordinary goal by:
Relearning a method I haven’t rung for about 4years ready for a peal attempt tomorrow. Trying to get a refund on some books I’d ordered then getting reimbursed for the rest.
Today I am:
Horny.
Today I am grateful for:
Any kind of wifely recognition I can get.
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