Aimiable

I’m currently feeling:
Empowered.

My thoughts creating this feeling:
One of yesterday’s tasks was to set my successor up with access to all the social media accounts. These accounts were set up by my predecessor under their business account and after much searching, I could not find a way to decouple the business account, nor add my successor without requiring the business account password. In the end, I decided I had to reach out to my predecessor and ask for their help. This particular person I had a catastrophic fall out with a couple of years ago when they wrongly accused me of something that escalated to my almost being thrown out, or resigning from the Association. I also fell out with all the people they dragged into it and those relationships have never fully recovered. Anyway, I bit the bullet and sent them an email asking for their help. I kept it professional and thanked them in advance of any help they could give. I got a comprehensive reply at 00:32 this morning, again keeping things professional. I have sent a quick acknowledgement this morning thanking them profusely for the time and lateness of the hour they spent on it. I feel proud to have actually reached out to resolve it, but always remain suspicions that somehow my response will be taken the wrong way and they will try and stir up something that is entirely not there.

My desired feeling:
Amiable.

My thoughts creating this feeling:
We’re off to Towcester today to ring in a competition. It’s going to take about an hour and a half to get there. We are giving someone a lift and will be spending the day with ringers from across the home counties. I’m under no illusion about winning, but it will a nice day out seeing people we only see a few times a year. I may get a chance to wander around some shops or the town centre anyway.

I‘ll show up on purpose in my dress, body language and presentation by:
Cropped jeans and lilac tshirt. Practical for ringing in, comfortable for travelling in and sensible for the activity, venue and people I’ll be around. Gibraltar bracelet, lilac cube earrings and a new multistrand necklace from Oliver Bonus that nestles nicely in my cleavage. I’m also wearing some new sexy undies I bought from Anne Summers recently. Keeping the sexiness under wraps, just for me to know!

I will show up for myself by:
Charming the room. Being friendly, polite and careful what I say around certain people in case they take umbridge at something I didn’t actually say, or it gets back to other parties misinterpreted and misrepresented.

I will upgrade my surroundings by:
Visiting Towcester for the day, meeting old acquaintances and exploring.

I will show up for my extra ordinary goal by:
I will look at the instructions my predecessor has sent through later and try to set my successor up then that’s the last bit, apart from some physical assets that need to be handed over.

Today I am:
Travelling.

Today I am grateful for:
The courage I had to reach out to my predecessor who triggers all sorts of feelings and who damaged several relationships for me by spreading false information. Hopefully, that draws a line under anything else I have to do with this person.