I’m currently feeling:
Relieved.
My thoughts creating this feeling:
I managed to get through yesterday without getting embroiled in conversations that would have been akward. To the extent I actually stayed away from everyone. I took a book and sat in the churches and read. It meant I hardly had to interact with anyone. I was actively excluded from the 8 bell group who were chatting about the instructions. One person purposely said “Hello Colin” when I was standing right next to him. Then they as a couple ignored me altogether when I said hello to them by name. Anyway, I stayed out of the way and kept myself to myself. I spoke to a few people who don’t trigger and kept quiet the rest of the time. Needless to say we didn’t win either competition this year, but not surprised. When we came home I bashed out a JWW and felt so much better for it. Spent the rest of the evening finishing my book and dozing.
My desired feeling:
Peaceful.
My thoughts creating this feeling:
Normal ringing this norming followed by ironing a rather large pile of clothes. After lunch we’re going to Ipswich to join others in a 12 bell practice. It should be fairly straight forward although one of yesterday’s triggers will be there, but on their own this time. When we get back home I need to do food prep for the week ahead. And I really must do this interview edit. I need to calm my thoughts about getting everything done and focus on one thing at a time. I’ll try not to let any anxieties wash over me. I have every right to be where I am and shouldn’t always be made to feel the outcast.
I‘ll show up on purpose in my dress, body language and presentation by:
Comfortable and practical. Green linen trousers, bright orange patterned tshirt. Gibraltar bracelet, birthstones necklace and diamond stud earrings. Functional.
I will show up for myself by:
Getting things done, quietly and efficiently. Ironing and food prep are a must.
I will upgrade my surroundings by:
Getting the ironing complete would be a bouus. Haven’t done any for a couple of weeks as we’d been away so it’s piled up. Would be good to clear the chair at least for a night before C does more landry and adds to it.
I will show up for my extra ordinary goal by:
Focus on getting this interview out of the way. The closing date for nominations is later this month so it needs to go out now.
Today I am:
Calming.
Today I am grateful for:
Managing my business yesterday. My mind was still telling me things but by removing myself from it physically, I was able to ignore it a little bit.
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