Sleek

I’m currently feeling:
Reflective.

My thoughts creating this feeling:
This time 26 years ago I gave birth to R. I was 26 at the time. Our lives up to this age could not be more different.  R is much more independent than I was then. She had followed her own path, found what she was good at and worked hard to support herself. Hear work ethic is for beyond alot of people. Some of the jobs she’s had have required her to work and travel at ridiculous times of the day and been given far too much responsibility commensurate with the pay she received. Fortunately she’s more settled now. She has a job that uses her skills and what she went to university for. She seems to be happy where she lives and works and has her small, select group of friends and colleagues. She is totally independent and travels far and wide having done her research. She has an inate interest in almost everything.

Truth be told, I’m probably a little jealous of her independence, skills and knowledge, her ability to be interested and interesting. I don’t get to physically see her as often as I might like but that’s because we both love things to do and it doesn’t always work out. I do get to see her when it matters and am grateful she still wants to meet up with us from time to time for no reason. Can’t wait to see her on Sunday.

My desired feeling:
Sleek.

My thoughts creating this feeling:
Stepping into sensuality and femininity in a big way today. Wearing an outfit I never thought I’d ever wear, but I think it looks great, and more to the point I feel great in it. I’m in a moment in time where I want to up the anti into the person I always was, but have kept surpressed over the last 30 years. More feminine and elegant outfits without looking cheap or gawdy. I’ve still got a lot of weight to lose but even where I am now I can dress and hold myself differently. I shouldn’t have to hide behind baggy, boring and androgenous clothes to hide all the wobbly bits. I am a woman who has birthed a child and had a fairly sedentary lifestyle. Over the last four months I have been slowly changing that, adding more exercise and changes of routine. Eating more healthily and taking my health more seriously. I’m starting to see muscle sculpting and toning. I’m holding myself more upright with shoulders back and head held high. I am not hiding behind jeans and polo shirts anymore, although there are occasions where that sort of outfit is required. In between times I can elevate my look to sleek, chic and gorgeous.

I‘ll show up on purpose in my dress, body language and presentation by:
Bright, hot pink, long length, square top, bodycon dress. I feel bloody amazing in it. I’m not going anywhere in particular today, maybe into town later, so don’t need to be dressed up for anything but why shouldn’t I look fabulous when I’m at home and noone else is looking. I’m dressing for me, noone else. I’m wearing a long chain necklace that bounces off my boobs, a gold chain bracelet and long gold leaf earrings. I’m feeling sleek and sexy and holding myself high.

I will show up for myself by:
Dressing for myself certainly showing up visually the way I want to. I’ll pop into town later and may treat myself to something sexy. I’ll fit in the 5th JWW of the week this afternoon. So glad I’ve stuck to it this week.

I will show up for my extra ordinary goal by:
Some admin to be done. Some opportunity for some SOSI work later too.

Today I am:
Missing my baby.

Today I am grateful for:
R. She is just about the best person ever. Ok, we don’t talk all the time like some parents and the adult kids, but she is so caring, kind, considerate, thoughtful, independent, clever, funny, mindful and talented. I’m grateful she still wants to hang out with us from time to time.