Desired

I’m currently feeling:
Calm.

My thoughts creating this feeling:
It’s the start of my weekend again, already. R arrived last night and was fairly bright and chatty. We have the birthday gathering in Nottingham tomorrow, but at the moment I’m feeling Ok with being surrounded by C’s exwife and her sisters, who all still think he’s the better of her 3 husbands. I’m treating today just as a bit of a family day out for us 3. I have my sexy undies on and no one else knows but me. I’ve caught up with all the emails that need answering and got my outfits for the weekend sorted. Nothing too racy, I don’t want to be embarrassing R, but cute and fun. We have no real plans for today, other than to head to Nottingham at some point probably late morning. No rush.

My desired feeling:
Desired.

My thoughts creating this feeling:
I am feeling quite sensual at the moment, maybe it’s the sexy undies, but I would like to get some physical attention. The trouble is, the more I get, the more I want. I’m feeling really good about my body at the moment and like to wear as little as possible within the realms of decency. I want fabrics to feel lightweight and almost not there, or that are almost see through or show of a bit more clearage, or bra. But I don’t want to look like a slut, mutton dressed as lamb, or desperate. I want it to be elegant and feminine at the same time.

I‘ll show up on purpose in my dress, body language and presentation by:
Trying not to overdo it as R’s here and we’ll be out in company all weekend. Cropped jeans and a black wrap, open knit top that has a deep V. My undies are new and a black G string, so I can feel the fabric of my jeans, and its almost like wearing nothing. The bra is one of those that has the strap that crosses over the top of the breast so if you were wearing a low top, or only a jacket, you’d see the strap. If I pull the wrap top low enough you can see it, but either way I know it’s there and I feel great. I have an Oliver Bonus necklace that one strand of goes deep into my cleavage, pointing the way. Matching bracelet and a pair of gold chain link earrings. Sexy, edgy.

I will show up for myself by:
Go with the flow for the day. No need to rush about. Eat well and stay hydrated. No JWW today, but maybe some walking if we stop off somewhere on route.

I will upgrade my surroundings by:
Travel to Nottingham, maybe stop off somewhere enroute. Take in the scenery.

I will show up for my extra ordinary goal by:
I’ve responded to all the emails that require answering for now. Nothing left for me to prep at present. Can take the weekend off and relax.

Today I am:
Sexy.

Today I am grateful for:
R being home, looking healthy and happy. I know some children, even her own school friends who don’t come home because they don’t have good relationships with their parents. I would hate for R to ever feel she couldn’t come home.