I’m currently feeling:
Relieved.
My thoughts creating this feeling:
Yesterday went well, despite all the rain. Plenty of outdoor cover was in place so nothing was called off and everyone came. Despite asking if they had everything we ended up doing 3 shopping trips for them because various things ran out. That was fine, gave us the opportunity to get out and go for a walk. I offered my services to help prepare things but it was declined so I hung about outside. We both passed pleasantries with the ex and her sisters, but didn’t hang near them or engage in much with them. C mostly stayed away from them. I even initiated conversation with the ex, including where her current was and how he’d chickened out. She said it was probably the same for C and my family, so I said at least he turns up even if he does roll his eyes. I took the lead in clearing things away and washing up so that didn’t drag into the evening too much. Quite a successful day of avoidance or integration on our terms.
My desired feeling:
More of the same.
My thoughts creating this feeling:
We’ll be joining everybody for ringing and coffee this morning, so she’ll be there again today. Not sure what our plans are for lunch or the rest of the day. R has a train at 3:30pm so that’ll be our excuse to go. C did mention possibly going back to the house again but we’ll see what everyone else is doing.
I‘ll show up on purpose in my dress, body language and presentation by:
Black jeans, burgundy tshirt. Simple, comfortable, practical.
I will show up for myself by:
Being the bigger person again but making sure everyone understands this is not an acceptable regular occurance.
I will upgrade my surroundings by:
Ringing and coffee in Nottingham, lunch somewhere, then travel back home.
I will show up for my extra ordinary goal by:
Seeing if any emails need addressing urgently when I get home.
Today I am:
Boss.
Today I am grateful for:
C not getting involved with the ex and her sisters beyond politeness and staying away from them most of the day, sticking with me and R at one end of the garden.
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