Unappreciated

I’m currently feeling:
Unappreciated.

My thoughts creating this feeling:
As I stood down as CCCBR PRO yesterday, there was a mild ripple of applause followed by a question that took the edge off it a bit that I answered well. Several people came up to me afterwards, including the person who’d asked the question, to say they didn’t feel I had received proper thanks because the question asked then stifled any further show of gratitude. However, if they felt that way, why didn’t they say anything in the meeting. I didn’t even get a proper thank you from the Exec. I got lots of congratulations about my new role, but not from the person I value the most. He’s said nothing at all.

My extraordinary goal for the year is…
Being financially savvy. I used to know all about my finances, life insurance, pensions, etc but over the years not really needed to bother to be worried about them. My EG is to help towards early and comfortable retirement in 3-4 years. I need to get on top of my spending, investments and plans.

What result will I produce this month?
So far, so good with the not spending. Not had opportunity or inclination.

My tasks for the day is…
Get myself together. Go ringing, listen and observe at this mornings session. Go home and do food prep for the week abread back at the office.

What thoughts are holding me back?
I should know by now, I’ve never really received proper recognition for anything I’ve done in the ringing evironment. Others get gifts, made Life Vice Presidents, get MBEs.etc for doing less, I don’t even get a proper acknowledged thank you.

What thought will I practice instead?
Does getting a proper thank you matter? When you’ve put your heart and sole into something, blood, sweat and tears, then yes. I feel that should be properly recognised. However, for others that happens, for me apparently not. I should be used to it by now.

What can I remove, elevate, upgrade or add to my style to embody my future self?
Standard ringing outfit today. Jeans and lilac tskirt. Same jewellry. Nothing special, nothing elevated. Nothing particularly stylish.

What can I remove, elevate, upgrade or add to align with my future self’s environment?
Ringing at what used to be my home tower this morning, although I don’t think any of my former colleagues will be there. Food prep in wire with getting back to healthy eating and exercise.

What am I excited to practice and improve?
Self control. Not get upset because I wasn’t officially thanked. Listen and observe what people have to say about our plans for moving forward.

My progress and my blessings
So now I’m Deputy President. I was unopposed so didn’t have the humiliation of losing a vote. I think the new President and I will work well together. I managed to find someone to take on PRO and think she’ll do an excellent job and will support her in that transition.

What do I declare myself to be today?
Underappreciated.

What questions can I ask of myself today?
How can I change my mindset and get over it? Why should I let it bother me? Why did I think it would be any different? How can I prepare good, restrictions food ready for the week ahead? How will I plan my coming week of exercise?

What words of encouragement, insight, wisdom or humour does my future self have for me today?
New week, new role, new start.