Desolate

I’m currently feeling
Desolate.

My thoughts creating this feeling:
Yesterday was a great day until we got back home in the early evening. Ringing had been successful and the young ringer attempting their first peal to a fairly advanced method for them was successful. When I got home, I was standing hear where I sit on the sofa and scratched my left ear lobe. As I did, I felt my earring pull, fall out and heard it hit something paper as it fell. I managed the catch the back, but the small diamond stud had landed somewhere amongst a throng of books and papers. I had an initial search and felt around but it wasn’t obvious where it had fallen. I gave up my search for now as I need proper day light to see in that corner, and will need to carefully take every paper and book out. That’s going to take some time. These were the earrings R gave me for Mothers Day when she was little when we’d been to the USA whilst she stayed at mum and dad’s for the week. That was for our 10th wedding anniversary, so nearly 17 years ago. I know they’re not real diamond either as my mum would have bought them for R. She’d have only been 6 at the time. Very much the sentimental value so I must find it.

I’m also disappointed my physical stats haven’t changed at all since the last JWW check in. Took measurements again this morning as next check in due today. Hey no! Stick with it

My extraordinary goal for the year is…
To be financially savvy again. Planning for early retirement by getting back on track with understanding my savings, investments and pensions.

What result will I produce this month?
So far, I’ve spent £0 on clothes or jewellry this month. A saving of an average of over £2,000!

My tasks for the day is…
Solid day at the office. No time for a JWW tonight. Early bell handling session for our learners followed by normal practice night. Going to be a long day.

What thoughts are holding me back?
I’m struggling to find motivation at work at the moment. Got enough to do. Not pushed particularly at the moment. Mentioned it in recent 1-2-1’s and my appraisal. All I keep being told is there’s plenty coming.

What thought will I practice instead?
Get what needs to be done, done. Keep focussed and eyes on the prize.

What can I remove, elevate, upgrade or add to my style to embody my future self?
Burgundy cropped trousers and camel silk blouse. Gibraltar bracelet, One & Eight hoop necklace and earring set. Its supposed to rain a lot today so will need proper shoes and brolly!

What can I remove, elevate, upgrade or add to align with my future self’s environment?
When I check in with JWW, I get a new set of workouts, and a whole bunch of new recipes. It will be interesting to see whats on offer this round.

What am I excited to practice and improve?
Grace. Femininity. Elegance. Restraint.

My progress and my blessings
I checked my bank balance yesterday and have over £500 spare at the moment, this close to pay day next week. I’m aiming to keep that, then transfer it to my savings account when I get paid.

What do I declare myself to be today?
Average.

What questions can I ask of myself today?
How will I fit some form of exercise into my day? How do I make bellringing practice fun for my learners?

What words of encouragement, insight, wisdom or humour does my future self have for me today?
Stick with the programme, results will come. Eyes on the prize. Just keep going.