Defeated

I’m currently feeling
Defeated.

My thoughts creating this feeling:
Didn’t get out for a walk yesterday lunchtime. Got home and started a JWW. I did a 10 minute Abs Challenge to start with and pushed myself harder during that. Then I started the 25 minute EMOM workout. I got less than half way through and had to stop. I just couldn’t physically move my limbs anymore. I tried to do the next exercise and managed 2 or 3 reps before needing to stop. It wasn’t because of the exercise itself, normally I can do them satisfactorily. I just couldn’t move my limbs anymore. I gave up as a lost cause. There was no point trying to carry on. However, I did some of it and some is better than none.

My extraordinary goal for the year is…
To be financially savvy again. Planning for early retirement by getting back on track with understanding my savings, investments and pensions.

What result will I produce this month?
Transferred the month end balance to my savings account. Got to stop the one off spending, as much as possible This month, allthough I do know of a couple of things that will need to be purchased this month.

My tasks for the day is…
Zoe breakfast challenge to see blood sugar levels based on specific food groups. Facilitating a workshop for colleagues all day today. JWW when I get home. Dinner. Exec meeting. Send AGM feedback to Devon group.

What thoughts are holding me back?
Bread and almonds for breakfast sounds horrible, but all in the name of science. Bit nervous about the workshop today, as I know less about the subject. Feel like this evening might be rushed.

What thought will I practice instead?
The food experiment is only for a few days. The workshop will be fine. I’m reasonably good at that stuff, and not knowing so much about the subject may be a good thing. It means I can ask awkward questions, and my favourite one: Why?

What can I remove, elevate, upgrade or add to my style to embody my future self?
Navy and white trousers and navy, long sleeved Hobbs top. Gibraltar bracelet, blue smoked glass One & Eight earrings and necklace. Supposed to be a bit cooler today. Will probably do a lot of standing about so want to be comfortable.

What can I remove, elevate, upgrade or add to align with my future self’s environment?
Refresh the water in the flower vase today, will help then perk up a bit.

What am I excited to practice and improve?
Confidence. Resiliance. Self discipline.

My progress and my blessings
I’m prepared as I can be for the workshop and this evening’s meeting.

What do I declare myself to be today?
Conscientious.

What questions can I ask of myself today?
How can I get everyone in the workshop engaged and creative? How will I complete the JWW without being defeated today?

What words of encouragement, insight, wisdom or humour does my future self have for me today?
I’m prepared. I’ve done this before. I can. I will.