Understanding

I’m currently feeling
Understanding.

My thoughts creating this feeling:
There were no issues about not going to church yesterday. C came to say goodbye and see ya later. All good. He had a Trustees meeting in the afternoon so I had a few hours to keep practicing London Royal on the computer ready for the quarter peal attempt later. When C got home he said one of the others had been for their Covid jab and had a sore arm so was suggesting they may pull out. In which case the quarter would be downgraded to an 8 bell one and someone else would have to stand down. A little while later C’s phone went and it was the organiser basically asking, but telling me to stand down. I was a bit peeved to be honest. Why me? There were others, single not couples, who could have been stood down. I suspect given a choice, one of Hazel or John would have been happy to stand down. Clearly I was no longer required. Sod it, I’ll stay home and read, but don’t dare think of standing me down next time. I get some people may have already left home to get there, but there were other local people who could have been called.

My extraordinary goal for the year is…
To be financially savvy again. Planning for early retirement by getting back on track with understanding my savings, investments and pensions.

What result will I produce this month?
No spending on frivolous one-offs, clothes or accessories.

My tasks for the day is…
Not at work today, ahead of going away tomorrow. Need to take the scaffolding down from the tower after the teddy bear drop. Meeting about ringing marketing at 12.30. JWW this afternoon before dinner. Packing for our trip. Learners practice and normal practice.

What thoughts are holding me back?
Not really up to speed with the marketing gumph. Have now taken on the role of Executive Sponsor so had better get to grips with it.

What thought will I practice instead?
Someone else is project lead and has the full handle. I have read the last document, and was at the Exec when we agreed the next round of expenditure. It will be interesting to sit in on.

What can I remove, elevate, upgrade or add to my style to embody my future self?
Dark green jeans and lilac tshirt. Gibraltar bracelet, birthstones necklace and amethyst stud earrings. Practical for climbing the tower again later, and for ringing.

What can I remove, elevate, upgrade or add to align with my future self’s environment?
In between activities, get to chill out for a bit and read or workout. Get ready for holiday by deciding what clothes and accessories to pack.

What am I excited to practice and improve?
Listening. Kindness. Self compassion.

My progress and my blessings
I dealt with yesterday’s let down quite well I thought. One of the others who was also spending a lot of time learning the method messaged me to say she thought I must have been annoyed. I said I was, but tried to make it sound like I understood why it should be me.

What do I declare myself to be today?
Queen of chill.

What questions can I ask of myself today?
How can I fulfil the need to exercise? What can I do to make sure I understand the extent of the marketing project? What can I pack that speaks to my elegant, feminine self?

What words of encouragement, insight, wisdom or humour does my future self have for me today?
I know what the weather is going to be like, I know the sorts of places we’ll be visiting. Therefore, I can pack accordingly. I can include sexy outfits, dresses, low out tops, see through, slinky and practical. I can take my workout gear too,