Disheartened

I’m currently feeling
Disheartened.

My thoughts creating this feeling:
I thought I’d chosen foods wisely yesterday, and some, on an individual level scored well, but when you added them to others as part of a meal, it brought the overall score down. Interesting that foods you’d think would be good, aren’t as good. Maybe they have hidden sugar or fat content. Anyway, I shall try my best again today. The idea is to score 50+ but yesterday I only scored 29?

My extraordinary goal for the year is…
To be financially savvy again. Planning for early retirement by getting back on track with understanding my savings, investments and pensions.

What result will I produce this month?
No spending on frivolous one-offs, clothes or accessories.

My tasks for the day is…
Try again with higher scoring foods. More walking today, as I haven’t been able to do any JWWs. Visiting a couple of places, one of which C specifically wants to go to, so try to find it interesting.

What thoughts are holding me back?
Foods I thought would score better don’t necessarily. Somewhat limited by where we are and what they have. Try to be interested in the visits we have planned for today.

What thought will I practice instead?
Just try to eat well instead of rubbish. Let C have his hour or so of his visit. He’s done all the work planning this holiday and researching places to go. He’s doing all the driving too.

What can I remove, elevate, upgrade or add to my style to embody my future self?
Black jumpsuit with open wrap top. My bra has those straps that go over the top of the breast and designed to be seen, so they’re pulling the eye. Oliver Bowns jewellry with necklace pendant nestling between my boobs. Tiniest of thongs so barely wearing anything below. Freedom for my body as much as possible.

What can I remove, elevate, upgrade or add to align with my future self’s environment?
Visiting a castle, a radar station and mill, and maybe somewhere else. Supposed to rain a bit today so walking boots and raincoat. Mix and match kind of day.

What am I excited to practice and improve?
Eating well. Kindness. Gratefulness. Interest.

My progress and my blessings
Enjoying some time away just the two of us. Not rushing to be anywhere. Wearing outfits that make me feel good and improving my eating habits by choosing carefully.

What do I declare myself to be today?
Daring.

What questions can I ask of myself today?
How will I know what food to choose that will give me a high score today? How can I demonstrate sexiness without sleaziness? How will I be interested in all I do and see today?

What words of encouragement, insight, wisdom or humour does my future self have for me today?
I can open or close the wrap top as much as I want depending on where I am. It might be more appropriate to cover up at some places, yet open out in others. If it’s raining and I have my raincoat done up, I can open my wrap top completely, lift my boobs out of my bra and let them feel the air.