Intrigued

I’m currently feeling
Intrigued.

My thoughts creating this feeling:
lst of December today. First day of Advent Calendar opening. I bought it for myself in about October when I first saw it. It looked glamorous and chic. I’ll find somewhere to put it so I can open each drawer easily. The drawers I can keep and use another year to put my own stuff in it. It’s made of wood and will last and be reusable. C doesn’t have one this year. He didn’t want his usual tea one, and neither of us are bothered by chocolate ones.

I want to go into town later on my own but C wants to come too, to do a bit of Christmas shopping for friends and family. Need cards and wrapping paper too. C has been less than helpful by saying he doesn’t want anything for Christmas, so at this rate, that’s exactly what he’ll get. I can’t be bothered to waste money on stuff and if there’s nothing in particular he wants, he’ll go without. He’s not the sort of person you can buy tat for, and he has no other interests except ringing so nothing to do with sport, or gardening etc. The kids will probably buy him craft beers in the absence of anything else.

My extraordinary goal for the year is…
To be financially savvy again. Planning for early retirement by getting back on track with understanding my savings, investments and pensions.

What result will I produce this month?
Only presents for birthdays and Christmas from here to the end of the year.

My tasks for the day is…
Pressie and card shopping. Meeting early afternoon. Read. JWW. Chill out.

What thoughts are holding me back? 
C wants to come shopping too, which somewhat curtails things. I never feel able to just buy what I want when he just hovers around. I spend my own money so that’s not the issue, it’s just he scowls, or stands there, or says there’s something cheaper or different elsewhere.

What thought will I practice instead?
He might get inspiration as to something I could buy him, or at least he can help carry the bags.

What can I remove, elevate, upgrade or add to my style to embody my future self?
Black leather trousers, purple long sleeved bamboo tshirt, Alpine zip up over the top. Very cold outside today so the house will get cold later on. Gibraltar bracelet, amethyst cube stud earrings and birthstone necklace. Simple. Warm.

What can I remove, elevate, upgrade or add to align with my future self’s environment?
Will find a spot to put my advent calender so I can open it each morning. Looking forward to discovering what’s inside each drawer.

What am I excited to practice and improve?
Inner calm. Don’t want any drama around the shops today. 

My progress and my blessings
Will write a list of everything I want to get. If C’s with me I won’t be able to get his card so that will have to wait.

What do I declare myself to be today?
Temptingly festive.

What questions can I ask of myself today?
How can I enjoy a shopping trip with C in tow and buy what I want to for whoever I want to, without feeling rushed, guilty, or judged.

What words of encouragement, insight, wisdom or humour does my future self have for me today?
Just do it. So what? Why should I feel compromised just because he’s a miserable old fart?