Open

I’m currently feeling
Open.

My thoughts creating this feeling:
To new routines, thoughts, feelings, experiences, the lot. This year of health and last year’s of elegance has really uplifted my mind, body and lifestyle. I still have a long way to go but I do less of what I don’t want to, I see less of people who don’t fit and have turned around many thoughts and feelings. What I’ve learned through SOSI has given me more confidence to be who I want to be. I was quite distant with C last night, didn’t really talk at all, and usually it bothers me a bit, that we don’t talk about important or trivial stuff. We were in the pub after ringing and the group was separated by the table lay out. C and I were on one side with a couple of others and the other 4 over the other side. It made conversation more difficult. I was sat side on to C. I pretty much ignored him most of the time where I’d usually try to touch his leg or connect somehow. Instead it was he who reached out to my leg several times, and he who instigated a topic of conversation, rather than me trying to fill an awkward silence. I’m much more open to not giving a damn if he doesn’t want to talk or ignores me. I’ll let others see that and just be more myself.

My extraordinary goal for the year is…
To be financially savvy again. Planning for early retirement by getting back on track with understanding my savings, investments and pensions.

What result will I produce this month?
Only presents for birthdays and Christmas from here to the end of the year.

My tasks for the day is…
Coaching call this morning and need to get an assignment done. Couple of meetings later. JWW when I get home, dinner, read and relax.

What thoughts are holding me back? 
Need to get the assignment done before the end of this week. Its already behind when I agreed I’d do it.

What thought will I practice instead?
Have opportunity today and tomorrow to get the assignment done. Just need to be in the right headspace to make a start.

What can I remove, elevate, upgrade or add to my style to embody my future self?
Dark green trousers, white wrap top with low cleavage. Not actually the top I was going to wear, but I’ll go with it. Gibraltar bracelet, chunky gold choker necklace and very long gold dangly earrings, pointing the way. A sexier outfit than I intended.

What can I remove, elevate, upgrade or add to align with my future self’s environment?
Powered through some long outstanding actions yesterday thanks to having them scheduled in my diary. Will do the same today and get rid of some old hangers on.

What am I excited to practice and improve?
Being open to anything, letting the day flow and me be me.

My progress and my blessings
I think the top I’m wearing is giving me more confidence today so I’ll lean into it.

What do I declare myself to be today?
On it.

What questions can I ask of myself today?
How can I progress long standing actions and clear my inbox before the  christmas break?

What words of encouragement, insight, wisdom or humour does my future self have for me today?
Open mind, open heart, open head, open top!