Drained

I’m currently feeling
Drained.

My thoughts creating this feeling:
As predicted, yesterday’s team chat at Basildon almost descended in to a personal attack on one or two individuals and I had to keep pulling it back to the purpose. These people have an axe to grind and they’ll do it at every opportunity and won’t be swayed. One, even said, after I’d given them the reasoning behind something, ” It won’t matter, you won’t change our minds”.

I was glad to get home and make some decent headway into my assignment. It also allowed me to do a JWW promptly in the evening. Felt much better after that.

We’d gone to bed around midnight then at 01:48 were woken by a car alarm. It was my car. I rushed downstairs to find my keys, and reactivated the locks which silenced it. No idea what set it off. Went back to sleep and at 03:05 it went off again. I’d taken the keys up to the bedroom just in case, so was quicker shutting it off. I lay awake for ages wondering if it would go off again, or what had, set it off in the first place. So I’m a bit tired this morning!

My extraordinary goal for the year is…
To be financially savvy again. Planning for early retirement by getting back on track with understanding my savings, investments and pensions.

What result will I produce this month?
Only presents for birthdays and Christmas from here to the end of the year.

My tasks for the day is…
A few meetings but I want to bash out the rest of the assignment if I can. JWW when I get home, dinner, then an online quarter peal attempt.

What thoughts are holding me back? 
I haven’t really learned the method for tonight properly and don’t want to be the one that stuffs it up for everyone else.

What thought will I practice instead?
I should have time to practice the method before we start. It’ll be fresh in my mind then.

What can I remove, elevate, upgrade or add to my style to embody my future self?
Navy trousers and navy and white, cowl necked top. Gibraltar bracelet, One & Eight blue smoked glass necklace and earring set. Simple, stylish.

What can I remove, elevate, upgrade or add to align with my future self’s environment?
Have scheduled tasks I agreed to at last night’s Exec meeting so I can keep track and get them moving.

What am I excited to practice and improve?
Making progress. Have given myself the next two weeks to get various things done before the christmas break.

My progress and my blessings
I feel more motivated and accomplished when I’m able to keep focus on things.

What do I declare myself to be today?
Tired.

What questions can I ask of myself today?
How will I stay motivated and on task? What impact can I have on my task list today?

What words of encouragement, insight, wisdom or humour does my future self have for me today?
When you’re good, you’re very good!