Chastised

I’m currently feeling
Chastised.

My thoughts creating this feeling:
I sent an email out yesterday inviting a group of people to attend a discussion session. No sooner had I sent it and several people confirmed they would like to attend. Great. Then I get an email from one of them saying how dare I contact people directly, it should have gone through a particular route. With hindsight, yes, perhaps I should have done that, but it would have taken much longer to be distributed, and suggests that ordinary members are not allowed to communicate directly with the Trustees. I’m still processing if, and how, I want to respond to that message, or just ignore it. Thought it would be good to share stuff within my own organisation, but the levels of beaurocracy now make that near on impossible. Just another reason to be out of it.

My extraordinary goal for the year is…
To be financially savvy again. Planning for early retirement by getting back on track with understanding my savings, investments and pensions.

What result will I produce this month?
Only presents for birthdays and Christmas from here to the end of the year.

My tasks for the day is…
Wrap C’s Christmas presents whilst he’s at church this morning. Ringing. Ironing. Relearn a method for this afternoon’s quarter peal attempt. May,or may not get to workout sare time. Food prep for the week ahead.

What thoughts are holding me back? 
The fact I’m still a) wound up by the message I received, and b) still not sure if, or how I might respond, is taking up far too much of my energy today.

What thought will I practice instead?
I could a) ignore it, b) acknowledge it, apologise. But mostly, move on. It doesn’t need to be taking up so much of my energy and emotion.

What can I remove, elevate, upgrade or add to my style to embody my future self?
Grey jeans, hot pink tshirt, grey long cardigan. Gibraltar bracelet, birthstones necklace and gold and diamond cuboid earnings. Simple. Comfortable.

What can I remove, elevate, upgrade or add to align with my future self’s environment?
Prepare healthy, filling and nutritious food for the week ahead. Start getting prepped for the family gathering next weekend.

What am I excited to practice and improve?
Mind control. How to stop thinking about things that are really not important in the grand scheme of things.

My progress and my blessings
Got plenty to do today, so focus on other more interesting and fun stuff.

What do I declare myself to be today?
frustrated by beacuracracy.

What questions can I ask of myself today?
How can I snap out of this emotion? How will I respond, or not to the email? How can I stop letting certain individuals get to me.

What words of encouragement, insight, wisdom or humour does my future self have for me today?
Move on. He and they are not worth my time and energy.