Amazed

I’m currently feeling
Amazed.

My thoughts creating this feeling:
Considering the big eats I had on Friday, then bacon butties, pizza slice and pasta dinner with wine yesterday, and chocolate I’ve lost another 1lb. That’s crazy. But perhaps more to do with metabolism changes. I have more energy now which means I’m more physical at things, walk faster and further, I’ve done JWW five times this week and loved every one of them. I move more even when just at home. We’ll see if today’s family gathering meal upsets all that. I’m not going to be overly bothered if I put on a few lbs over Christmas, I now know I’d be able to shift it again quickly.

It’s the family gathering today, predominantly for Dad’s birthday. 13 of us for a pub lunch. There’ll be chaos over the bill, trying to split it amongst the 4 of us to cover mum and dad’s food. Despite that, I actually feel ok about it at the moment.

My extraordinary goal for the year is…
To be financially savvy again. Planning for early retirement by getting back on track with understanding my savings, investments and pensions.

What result will I produce this month?
Only a few days left until December pay day. Get today’s meal sorted and I have no further expenses this year.

My tasks for the day is…
Ringing. Gathering. Return R to the station so she can get a train home. Maybe some ironing this evening.

What thoughts are holding me back? 
I don’t really have much in common with most of my family. I have no connection to my brothers second family, they seem quite vacuous. I can’t find anything to talk to them about. My eldest sister always has to play the martyr and how everything is doom and gloom, and my parents aren’t interested or understand anything we do. I’m the only one that doesn’t speak to them regularly, even though I live closest. We’ll spend a few hours over dinner struggling to find common ground, then back to parents for coffee and all waiting for an appropriate excuse to leave.

What thought will I practice instead?
It’s only a few hours. At least R is there who will entertain and be educational for some. I’ve made cake so that’ll get eaten, then we can leave, job done.

What can I remove, elevate, upgrade or add to my style to embody my future self?
Cream, silk trousers, cream and beige winter jumper. Gibraltar bracelet, 3 strand necklace and pearl stud earrings. Clean, classy, elegant, soft.

What can I remove, elevate, upgrade or add to align with my future self’s environment?
Pub lunch. Last few hours with R before she has to go back.

What am I excited to practice and improve?
Patience. Connection. Red velvet rope policy.

My progress and my blessings
I’m amazed at how my weight and physique is coming along. I love all the workouts in this cycle and am really pushing myself doing all the exercises, even the ones I hate, all the reps and all the rounds.

What do I declare myself to be today?
Family.

What questions can I ask of myself today?
How can I practice patience and kindness with my family and not allow them to frustrate me.

What words of encouragement, insight, wisdom or humour does my future self have for me today?
Its only for a few hours, then can make our excuses to get R to the station. Done for another year.