I’m currently feeling
Mixed.

My thoughts creating this feeling:
A bit sad as today is my step-son-in-laws, mothers funeral. Whilst a sad occasion we’ll get to see them before Christmas and exchange presents. R came home last might to come up with us and will get a train back to her home this evening. We’re staying overnight and back tomorrow. But, ready for R’s return again on Saturday for a few days for Christmas, and I’ve finished work until after the new year. C put the Christmas tree and a few decorations up yesterday, nothing too much.

My extraordinary goal for the year is…
To be financially savvy again. Planning for early retirement by getting back on track with understanding my savings, investments and pensions.

What result will I produce this month?
No major expenses expected this month. C has a meeting with his financial advisor and I see via email my pension is on the list of discussion topics, even though I’m not there now have given either of them consent to discuss my finances.

My tasks for the day is…
Drive to Nottingham for the funeral and wake. Get R to the train station, check into our hotel and at some point visit E&M to exchange Christmas gifts.

What thoughts are holding me back? 
C’s ex will of course be there and probably fussing about, so I’ll leave her to it.

What thought will I practice instead?
Will take the day as it unfolds. Hopefully get to spend time with E+M and little E by ourselves before we come home.

What can I remove, elevate, upgrade or add to my style to embody my future self?
Black trousers, black top. Gibraltar bracelet, One & Eight hoop earrings and necklace. Subtle, respectful.

What can I remove, elevate, upgrade or add to align with my future self’s environment?
We’ll get to spend some time with E+M and little E at some point. I’m sure it won’t all be sadness and there’ll be some lightness to the day.

What am I excited to practice and improve?
Quiet, calm.

My progress and my blessings
The next few days are going to be busy with preparations, lots of ringing for carol services, fitting in JWW when I can,  reading and recouperating.

What do I declare myself to be today?
Serine.

What questions can I ask of myself today?
How can I stay quiet and calm throughout today, not get annoyed or upset by C’s ex?

What words of encouragement, insight, wisdom or humour does my future self have for me today?
Its only for today. Play nicely, then move on.