Sore

I’m currently feeling
Sore.

My thoughts creating this feeling:
We scored the peal yesterday, so there’s a bit of added pressure to score todays to make my 150th by the end of this year. It wasn’t pretty. There were silly method mistakes from the youngsters, even C and I made a few minor errors. However, we got to the end and it all looks the same on paper. I didn’t realise I was getting blisters until about half way through when they clearly popped and I felt sticky goo on my fingers. They continued to get sore as we went on. I was also ringing one of the heavier bells and could feel my triceps and shoulders starting to give in. This morning my triceps are still burning with DOMS. My fingers are still sore so I’ll have to wrap them in micropore before todays attempt. We did have a very nice dinner after the peal at a pub I’d booked us all into.

My extraordinary goal for the year is…
To be financially savvy again. Planning for early retirement by getting back on track with understanding my savings, investments and pensions.

What result will I produce this month?
No clothes or accessory purchases at all this month.

My tasks for the day is…
Peal attempt at Canewdon, a pretty rare tower to get, so hoping everyone is on their A game and we get it. Not least as it will be my 150th but only 3 of the band will know that in advance.

What thoughts are holding me back? 
There are people in the band who struggle to ring for that length of time these days, and haven’t rung the method for a very long time either. They will be the loose ends and it will be difficult to keep them right all the time. Hopefully, one of them will offer to ring the treble and stay out of the way.

What thought will I practice instead?
If we don’t get it, we don’t get it. It would be disappointing and mildly frustrating to have missed my target, but it’s only ringing at the end of the day.

What can I remove, elevate, upgrade or add to my style to embody my future self?
Dark jeans, lilac tshirt, long grey cardigan. No bracelet, birthstones necklace and peridot and amethyst earrings again. Keeping it simple and comfortable to ring in.

What can I remove, elevate, upgrade or add to align with my future self’s environment?
More ringing today, fingers crossed it all goes ok. E, M&E and V are coming over later for supper. We’ve got a quick bit of tidying to do and C has already put together a stew that can be brewing in the slow cooker.

What am I excited to practice and improve?
If we are successful today I don’t want to be overly smug about it. Those I’m ringing with have all rung way over my total so probably wouldn’t be all that impressed. If we don’t score it I don’t want to be overly disappointed about it because there’s already a lot of pressure on people to score peals, noone likes to lose them or does it deliberately. A lot of pressure on C again as conductor, and knowing it could be my 150th. Don’t want to add to his current stress.

My progress and my blessings
I’m grateful to those who came out to ring in yesterdays peal as a special request to sneak one in to try to get my 150th before the end of the year. We did them a favour when one of them wanted to achieve their 900th, so this was reciprocating. And of course to C who conducted it without question.

What do I declare myself to be today?
Sore and hopeful.

What questions can I ask of myself today?
How will I make sure I’m not the one to go wrong? How can I be hopeful and yet not disappointed if it doesn’t work out?

What words of encouragement, insight, wisdom or humour does my future self have for me today?
I know what I’m doing. I should have no reason to go wrong. Wrap my sore fingers up and crack on.