Competent

I’m currently feeling
Competent.

My thoughts creating this feeling:
Yesterday, I did everything I set out to do. After haircut, I got straight on o dealing with those 2 outstanding tasks I’d mentioned. The document was uploaded and shared.Tick. The email response was draughted and circulated for comment before I send it off. Tick. I even did some other bits of admin that weren’t on the list, but cleared them out of the way. After lunch C and I set about trying to log into my previous employer pension. It took a while to get the login details to work but got there eventually. C then sent all the relevant details to his financial adviser. The thought is to consolidate them if we can and figure out what needs topping up so I can get full value and be financially stable until I can draw from them. I read. I worked out and relaxed. I do like having my Fridays.

My extraordinary goal for the year is…
To be financially savvy again. Planning for early retirement by getting back on track with understanding my savings, investments and pensions.

What result will I produce this month?
Login to my M&G pension account to see what that status is. Also request an NHS Pension forecast.

My tasks for the day is…
District meeting this afternoon. Not going to get to workout today. I can’t seem to do them in the mornings, makes me feel unwell. May pop into town this morning but don’t really need to. Read. Wait.

What thoughts are holding me back? 
There will be triggering people at the District Meeting, including C’ s ex wife probably. I get very frustrated by how the meetings are managed and how those standing down will get praised for the last few years, when during the Covid hiatus, they did nothing. I’ve never had so much as a thank you.

What thought will I practice instead?
So what? People have short memories when it comes to stuff like that. Just carry on doing what I’m doing, sod everyone else.

What can I remove, elevate, upgrade or add to my style to embody my future self?
Dark blue jeans, blue and white nordic style jumper. Gibraltar bracelet, birthstones necklace and peridot and amethyst earrings. Supposed to be cooler today. Warm, comfortable, relaxing.

What can I remove, elevate, upgrade or add to align with my future self’s environment?
Maybe a walk into town. Ringing and mixing with ringers at the District Meeting. Presumably my Dad will be there too.

What am I excited to practice and improve?
Self control. Not let anyone get to me this afternoon. Charm the room techniques.

My progress and my blessings
I don’t actually need to ring at this venue, although we probably will. I don’t need to be anywhere near anyone who triggers.

What do I declare myself to be today?
Content.

What questions can I ask of myself today?
How can I not get frustrated by people and events today?

What words of encouragement, insight, wisdom or humour does my future self have for me today?
Go with the flow. If other people want to be two-faced, or have double standards let them. I can stick to my values.