Preparing

I’m currently feeling
Preparing.

My thoughts creating this feeling:
Lots to prepare for today. Several work meetings, one of which has pre-reading required. Giving a presentation this evening so need to get the presentation ready to go. Its one I haven’t produced so need to refresh on the content. Then prepare for our weekend away ringing. Well be leaving very early so need to have everything packed, ready to go in the morning.

My extraordinary goal for the year is…
To be financially savvy again. Planning for early retirement by getting back on track with understanding my savings, investments and pensions.

What result will I produce this month?
Login to my M&G pension account to see what that status is. Also request an NHS Pension forecast.

My tasks for the day is…
Write up some notes from a couple of meetings. Complete a couple of action logs and project documents. Load and deliver this evenings presentation. Get clothes and extras ready to pack. Won’t have time for a JWW tonight, or get to do any over the weekend.

What thoughts are holding me back? 
Not really sure how receptive people will be to this presentation. Its not contentious, but this lot can be a funny bunch. Not entirely sure how many of them will even turn up.

What thought will I practice instead?
I don’t need to defend any of the content in the presentation. It is what it is. I’m only asking if they feel it would be something they would adopt in part or whole. No one’s going to be upset if the answer is no.

What can I remove, elevate, upgrade or add to my style to embody my future self?
Black and white dress. Not particularly flattering but functional. Gibraltar bracelet, hoop One & Eight earnings and necklace set. Uninspiring but comfortable.

What can I remove, elevate, upgrade or add to align with my future self’s environment?
Professional, calm responses to any questions this evening.

What am I excited to practice and improve?
A sense of calm and rational thought around what’s happened over the last 48hrs and the weekend with C’s ex around.

My progress and my blessings
It all seemed like nothing had happened last night but there was extra long hugging before C turned over and went to sleep.

What do I declare myself to be today?
Nonchalant.

What questions can I ask of myself today?
How can I be fully prepared ahead of toughit’s presentation so I come across knowledgable and professional?

What words of encouragement, insight, wisdom or humour does my future self have for me today?
I don’t really care what the outcome of the presentation is, it has no impact on me or anything I’m doing.