Familiar

I’m currently feeling
Familiar.

My thoughts creating this feeling:
Back home to familiar surroundings and familiar routine. Got a swift, unromantic peck from C last night when we went to bed. He seemed to be coming down with the sniffles so clearly I wasn’t going to get anything more. This morning I got on the scales of doom and was glad to see I’d only put on llb. Clearly made good food choices over the weekend. Have a fasting blood test to do today and mistakenly booked the slot for 3:15pm, so unless they’d be willing to squeeze me in first thing, I can’t eat anything for most of the day. As a precaution, if they can’t or won’t fit me in, I’m not taking any breakfast with me today. I’m taking lunch but can hold that until after my appointment.

My extraordinary goal for the year is…
To be financially savvy again. Planning for early retirement by getting back on track with understanding my savings, investments and pensions.

What result will I produce this month?
Login to my M&G pension account to see what that status is. Also request an NHS Pension forecast.

My tasks for the day is…
Strategic workshop with colleagues all morning. Not sure what contribution to this I can make anymore as I’m not operational and the projects I’m now picking up take me even further away. Learners practice and normal practice this evening.

What thoughts are holding me back? 
Not being able to eat anything until late afternoon. My own stupid fault when I booked the appointment I wasn’t thinking.

What thought will I practice instead?
I’ll see if they’ll sneak me in first thing. Depends who’s there as to whether they will or not. If not, I’ll just have to drink lots of water all day and pee a lot!

What can I remove, elevate, upgrade or add to my style to embody my future self?
Navy trousers, coral coloured linen top. Gibraltar bracelet, v necklace and peridot and amethyst earrings. Simple, effective, warm.

What can I remove, elevate, upgrade or add to align with my future self’s environment?
Not going anywhere other than the office, home and ringing. Too cold to go out for a walk today. Stay in the warm as much as possible.

What am I excited to practice and improve?
Routine. Get back to exercising and eating well.

My progress and my blessings
My mindset has shifted into not worrying about whether my husband wants to actually have a relationship with me, to one of I can be independant, but still married. That doesn’t mean I’m going to seek other relationships, just not let myself be so bothered about this one. If he can’t, why should I?

What do I declare myself to be today?
Thinking.

What questions can I ask of myself today?
How can I manifest a life of abundance and satisfaction ready for early retirement and future possibilities?

What words of encouragement, insight, wisdom or humour does my future self have for me today?
Give what you get. Reflect back as much as you are given. I’ve always wondered how that works it someone else is doing the same to you, surely you’re in a catch 22 situation.