I’m currently feeling
Stunned.
My thoughts creating this feeling:
I am stunned and amazed at how my body and mindset have shifted, particularly in the last month or so. Yesterday I did a JWW followed by the second Abs & Core workout. I loved every minute of it, even when I was straining to do the crunches. I’m amazed I’ve dropped another Ib on the scales of doom that now brings me to below 200lb! I’m conscious this may only be temporary for today and that food and the weekend ahead may change all that back. I’m stunned at how clothes that were once tight, or at best just fit, are now hanging freely with room to move.
I’m sturned at how my mindset has moved on from last month’s feeling sorry for myself because my husband doesn’t show me any affection, and when he does, it often falls short. I’m telling myself that it doesn’t matter and I don’t care. If he wants to be like that I can reciprocate. Yesterday when I was getting ready to go into town, I stood right next to him and said goodbye. He made no move to give me a hug or kiss, so I simply turned around and left. I’m working on loving myself and becoming a more developed and better person. He’ll either figure out he’s missing out on something, or carry on how he is and get left behind. Either way, I’m assuming I’m now just the house mate that happens to sleep in the same bed. And actually, at the moment I feel ok about that.
My extraordinary goal for the year is…
To be more financially savvy and understand my pensions, savings and investments more to enable me to take early retirement in 2026 and live a luxurious life.
What result will I produce this month?
The Paul Mckenna book arrived yesterday so I can make a start on learning from that. I did blowout on new clothes yesterday. I’m currently obsessed with my upper arms and bought several sleeveless, halter neck, style tops. I did also buy them from upgraded stores like Mint Velvet, instead of New Look. Upgrading my shopping experience to demonstrate a wealthy woman who deserves nice quality items. I did make use of my Blue Light card at every opportunity to at least get some discount.
My tasks for the day is…
Into town again later, this time with C. We’ll have lunch out before spending the afternoon in a management committee meeting, where I’m going to do my best to keep very quiet. No opportunity for a JWW, so I’ll class today as a rest day.
What thoughts are holding me back?
I find these meetings increasingly and incredibly frustrating. There seems to be more power struggles then there ever was, more people getting irate if they don’t get their own way. There are several people in this committee who I don’t trust and have proven untrustworthy over the last few years, So I try not to give them any consideration.
What thought will I practice instead?
I don’t have to be involved in much of it. My only role now is as one of the CCCBR Reps. Its hard, having been so involved in the Association for 30+ years, to see it degenerate and not want to do something about it. But time to let others deal with it.
What can I remove, elevate, upgrade or add to my style to embody my future self?
Dark blue jeans, white, pastel flower patterned tshirt, that used to be a tight fit but now drops passed my waist. V&A bracelet, peridot and amethyst earrings, and Pandora gold charm necklace.
What can I remove, elevate, upgrade or add to align with my future self’s environment?
Reading the DIVA exhibition book I bought last week, so I can then add it to my coffee table collection.
What am I excited to practice and improve?
Mindfullness. Quiet.
My progress and my blessings
I’m stunned at the number on the scales this morning and really excited to check in on Monday for the next JWW cycle.
What do I declare myself to be today?
Controlled.
What questions can I ask of myself today?
How will I manage to stay quiet and neutral during today’s meeting and not let people trigger my frustration or anger?
What words of encouragement, insight, wisdom or humour does my future self have for me today?
Just keep swimming, just keep swimming!
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