Nervous

I’m currently feeling:
Nervous.

My thoughts creating this feeling:
Feeling oddly nervous about returning to work this morning. Have an assessed coaching call first, then probably not a lot else all day. Will stay in Southend for a few hours though and get home just in time to pack up. Think the nervousness is around not really having much to do at the moment. I’m hoping conversations I had with my boss before my break will actually have achieved something I can get my teeth into, rather them keep being promised stuff in the future. Being home early means I may be able to smash out a workout before dinner. Then early learner’s practice and normal practice.

My extraordinary goal for this year is:
To be more financially savvy and understand my pensions, savings and investments more to enable me to take early retirement in 2026 and live a luxurious life.

What results will I produce this month?
Been paid already for March but also got £99 from the sale of some of my old jewellry. Got a few days away this month and C’s birthday dinner but otherwise no major expenses expected. Will buy a new jewellry case and the money I got from the sale will cover that.

My task for the day is:
Coaching session. Catch up on emails etc. Maybe a JWW, ringing.

What thoughts are holding me back?
Not really looking forward to going back to work. Feel a bit of a fraud without much to do but I have mentioned it several times and been told stuff will come.

What thought will I practice instead?
A series of short weeks coming up. Only 3 days this week, so it will fly by.

What can I remove, elevate, upgrade or add to my style to embody my future self?
Black, wide leg trousers, coral, linen top. Bramwells bracelet, birthstones necklace and cuboid diamond stud earrings. Decided I’d wear heels today for the first time this year. Elegantly comfortable.

What can I remove, elevate, upgrade or add to align with my future self’s environment?
Drive to Southend and back. Always good for gathering thoughts or dumping thoughts for the next thing.

What am I excited to practice and improve?
An observed coaching session. Good to get feedback and almost ready to book exam sessions in.

My progress and my blessings
C booked his weekend break gift last night for 2 nights away near the 12 bell contest in June. Two nights B&B in a decent hotel rather than a Premier Inn.

What do I declare myself to be today?
Open to what the week ahead has in store.

What questions can I ask of myself today?
How can I persist in finding useful things to do at work that make use of my skills and provide a challenge?

What words of encouragement, insight, wisdom or humour does my future self have for me today?
Several short working weeks coming up. Roll with it.