Deflated

I’m currently feeling:
Deflated.

My thoughts creating this feeling:
Had a conversation with my boss, who, after consulting with hers, says I’m to still wait until something comes up. Apparently there’s going to be a bit of a shuffle at the top and it may open up other opportunities for me. I did remind her that I’m currently not being fully utilised and not value for money for the organisation. She threw me a bone to look into something to do with data strategy but I’m not overly excited about it and it’s not going to keep me busy for long.

My extraordinary goal for this year is:
To be more financially savvy and understand my pensions, savings and investments more to enable me to take early retirement in 2026 and live a luxurious life.

What results will I produce this month?
Been paid already for March but also got £99 from the sale of some of my old jewellry. Got a few days away this month and C’s birthday dinner but otherwise no major expenses expected. Will buy a new jewellry case and the money I got from the sale will cover that.

My task for the day is:
Get through today as best I can at the office. JWW. Learners practice. Email the school and brewery to remind them of our visit on Friday.

What thoughts are holding me back?
I’m just bored at work. And it overflows into other areas of life. Spending all day trying to find things to do is immensely draining.

What thought will I practice instead?
I’ve told my boss often enough. She knows how I feel. If she’s happy with the current situation so be it. If another opportunity comes along that’s more interesting, I maybe tempted.

What can I remove, elevate, upgrade or add to my style to embody my future self?
Black, wide leg trousers, dark green top. Bramwells bracelet, V&A green enamel earrings, and another rediscovered necklace. Smart. Chic.

What can I remove, elevate, upgrade or add to align with my future self’s environment?
Focus on health and wellbeing at the moment. Need to order the jewellry boxes but that may have to wait until next week.

What am I excited to practice and improve?
Patience, patience and more patience.

My progress and my blessings
A short week. Only 2 more days to get through.

What do I declare myself to be today?
Hopeful.

What questions can I ask of myself today?
How can I get through my day and add value?

What words of encouragement, insight, wisdom or humour does my future self have for me today?
Smash out a workout and get ready for next check in. Focus on the things that do excite me.