Regretful

I’m currently feeling:
Regretful.

My thoughts creating this feeling:
I didn’t do a JWW last night. By the time I’d got home from work I’d talked myself out of it. I had a stiff neck, my upper arms ached, I felt lethargic and just couldn’t be bothered. I was telling myself I should do one anyway because we’re away for the weekend so I won’t get to do one again until Monday but I really didn’t want to and made excuses about needing to pack, and send emails before we go. I’m due to check in on Monday to the next cycle so I’ve weighed and measured myself today, so it excludes all the food and drink from the weekend ahead. Despite what I thought was being much more on plan, I’ve not lost anything either by weight or centimetres. That’s dissapointing, but also galvanising. When I get back on Monday I’ll be setting the intention to stick to the food plan more and workout, even when I don’t feel like it. I need to go all in and fully commit. Nothing’s going to happen if I do it half hearted.

My extraordinary goal for this year is:
To be more financially savvy and understand my pensions, savings and investments more to enable me to take early retirement in 2026 and live a luxurious life.

What results will I produce this month?
Accidently got stung for an app last night. Thought I was signing up for a free trial but its charged me for 3 months. Luckily I managed to cancel auto renew so it’ll only be 3 months charge, but even so, it was a very sneaky app. Got C’s birthday dinner, Mothers Day and mum’s birthday this month.

My task for the day is:
Finish packing. Nip into town for a few bits whilst C is out ringing this morning. Quick lunch. Head off towards Devon.

What thoughts are holding me back?
Its C’s birthday on Saturday. There’s the option to let him have his presents today before we go, or make him wait until we get back on Sunday. I’ll get them out and he can decide. Other gifts from R and E should arrive today, hopefully before we leave.

What thought will I practice instead?
Looking forward to a busy weekend. Scoping out venues. Seeing lots of different people.

What can I remove, elevate, upgrade or add to my style to embody my future self?
Blue jeans, while flower patterned tshirt, blue alpine cardigan. Gibraltar bracelet, diamond stud earnings, birthstones necklace. Simple, comfortable for travel.

What can I remove, elevate, upgrade or add to align with my future self’s environment?
Weekend away in a couple of different hotels, food out, seeing different people. Sample local life in Devon and Harbury.

What am I excited to practice and improve?
Calm. Poise. Socialising.

My progress and my blessings
C has arranged all the hotels and travel arrangements when the weekend is entirely for my purposes. I just have to pack and go.

What do I declare myself to be today?
Relaxed.

What questions can I ask of myself today?
How can I eat healthily over the weekend and not undo all the good work? How can I make myself make better choices?

What words of encouragement, insight, wisdom or humour does my future self have for me today?
Enjoy the weekend and don’t miss out, but don’t go over board either.