Grateful

My current feeling:
Grateful.

My current thoughts are:
As part of our SLT meeting yesterday we reviewed each others self assessments an Leadership. Some had understated themselves and I thought I’d over stated mine, but it was good to talk it through with the others and get their opinion on how we scored ourselves. Mine keeps coming back to people’s perception of me as being hard and harsh at first contact with powerful presence (cockiness?), which I can be. It was interesting to hear one of the others describe me when they first knew me versus now when they’ve known me longer and worked with me closer. It was interesting to hear others describe me as having a presence and confidence, when a lot of the time thats not how I feel at all. I’m confident of the things I know about but hang back when I’m not. I’m also too obvious when I get hacked off about something. I continue to work on these things but don’t feel I should have to compromise on the behalf of idiots. Maybe I just need to work on my facial responses better. But at least people know when I’m pissed off.

My physical state is:
Strong.

My physical state is a result of:
Did a full 40 minute advanced workout last night. Enjoyed every minute of it.

I will make today extraordinary by:
1) Clearing most of my inbox at work.
2) Completing 1m 35s of static glute hold.
3) Preparing for our wedding anniversary day out tomorrow.

My desired emotion for today is:
Supportive.

I am a woman who:
Helps.

Today I will let go of:
Deleting errors. Managed to clear the last few thousand yesterday. Will check this morning to make sure nothing else has snuck in.

Today I choose to add:
Lightness.

My wins, accomplishments, gratitudes for today:
The end of another working week. I’ve learned about myself and can work on what I think could change as a result.

The thoughts that support my celebrations:
I’m lucky enough to work with colleagues who are open and honest about themselves and each other, in a supportive way and with care for each other.

I want to improve the following for tomorrow:
My ability to not be so obvious about my thoughts and feelings when I disagree, or am not heard on particular topics. I am in charge of managing my own emotions and what I make things mean.

Words of advice, wisdom, encouragement, humour from my future self:
Do the work, don’t just talk the talk.