Loved

My current feeling:
Loved.

My current thoughts are:
He may not necessarily show it in a physical sense but C takes very good care of me really. Everything from doing the food shopping and cooking to cleaning and laundry. But also in ensuring I am safe and secure, giving me space to workout, and now he’s homing in on me trying to upgrade our surroundings. There’s a pile of random stuff, including boxes of books and papers, with clothes piled on top in our bedroom. It’s a messy heap and I have nowhere else to store those clothes. A week or so ago he came out with he’d been looking at low level chests of drawers that could fit in that space and I could put my clothes away in there and sort through the other stuff. Yesterday we looked at some websites for the sort of thing that would fit. In the end we landed on one that could make a bespoke sized chest in any finish we wanted. He ended up ordering one to the exact size we need and to the finish I wanted. It’ll take a few weeks to be made but I’m already excited about clearing that space.

My physical state is:
Pumped.

My physical state is a result of:
Smashed out the workout yesterday, all reps, all rounds. Heart rate up, sweat on. Scales of doom looking good for Monday’s check in provided nothing silly happens between now and then.

I will make today extraordinary by:
1)  Finishing my book.
2) Completing 2m 55s of static glute hold.
3) Walking and working out.

My desired emotion for today is:
Purposeful.

I am a woman who:
Is grateful someone takes care of me.

Today I will let go of:
Neediness.

Today I choose to add:
Self-awareness.

My wins, accomplishments, gratitudes for today:
No meetings, no urgent admin, nowhere to be, no rush, no hassle, no drama.

The thoughts that support my celebrations:
Completely empty day. Can catch up on reading, self-awareness and research on being a wealthy woman.

I want to improve the following for tomorrow:
Connections.

Words of advice, wisdom, encouragement, humour from my future self:
Looking forward to a video call with R tomorrow. She doesn’t really communicate much outside of us nagging for information. If I didn’t ask for her time, I’m not sure how long it would be between calls or seeing her.