Excited

My current feeling:
Excited.

My current thoughts are:
Just got off the scales and have dropped another lb taking me into the 13st bracket at a sustainable number. It looks like I could now class myself as 13st something on a regular basis. As I’ve said before, I’ve not been consistently that weight since 2019! I’m also looking forward to this weeked. Lots of the stuff happening. Prospect of getting a lot of admin done today, followed by a workout. Then out to dinner with my colleagues to a fun restaurant and I’ll get dressed up for. Tomorrow food prep day and a bit of baking. R is coming come in the late afternoon so we’re going out for a chinese with her. Then Sunday the family gathering. I’ll try to enjoy it and be charming, interested, and not let certain members of the family wind me up. Another meal out. I guess I won’t stay in the 13st bracket for long!

My physical state is:
Svelt.

My physical state is a result of:
I feel really slim, even though I’m still not, and there’s a long way to go, but my clothes are looser, my tummy no longer sticks out further than my boobs and I can feel muscles in there somewhere. I’m feeling good about it anyway.

I will make today extraordinary by:
1) 4 Zoom meetings back to back and clearing some admin.
2) Kettlebell Workout later.
3) Dinner out and dressing up.

My desired emotion for today is:
Fun.

I am a woman who:
Can have fun even if its work.

Today I will let go of:
Bitterness.

Today I choose to add:
Lightness.

My wins, accomplishments, gratitudes for today:
Wrote up several SoSI class notes yesterday and noted what real actions I needed to take to make a shift. I usually listen to the class and have a quick think about the content but don’t really do the deep work. I want to start making a real change rather than a superficial one.

The thoughts that support my celebrations:
If I want to be different I need to think different. In order to do that I need to actually put in the practice, not just talk about it. Things are gradually changing, my style, my surroundings but the person inside still feels bitter and hard done by at times and I need to let that go if I am to truly become someone else.

I want to improve the following for tomorrow:
I want every interaction to be a positive one with happy thoughts and outcomes. I want to be firm and decisive where I need to be but supportive and helpful when it matters.

Words of advice, wisdom, encouragement, humour from my future self:
Just had quite a good conversation with C about CCCBR stuff, nothing confidential, but things like where else can I be finding out things, things that the President knows about I don’t even understand how she heard about it. I don’t think there’s anything I’m not doing but maybe need to read more and take it in.