Rejected

My current feeling:
Rejected.

My current thoughts are:
I’ve been devoid of much work to do for the last 6 months neary and keep asking, keep telling people I have nothing to do and keep being told to be patient. For some reason this morning my patience seems to have run out and I’ve woken up feeling quite annoyed about it all and that I’ve basically been written off because I mentioned once, my intention to retire early in a couple of years time. I’ve been told that as I’m only planning on being here for another couple of years there’s probably not much chance of getting anything too meaty to get stuck into. I was told my last one to one was an inefficient use of time and I didn’t need to attend the last senior leads meeting as it was all going to be operational stuff. I kinda feel I’ve already been put out to pasture. I’m literally just scrolling the internet all day but I’m supposed to feel a valued member of the team, stay positive and motivated.

My physical state is:
DOMS.

My physical state is a result of:
Did another 2 x 10 minute workouts yesterday and even though they were back at intermediate level, and bodyweight only they were just as hard. My thighs and arms feel sore. But I feel good.

I will make today extraordinary by:
1) Getting out for a walk again, even if its raining.
2) Meeting someone else to discuss their team roles.
3) Doing a full workout this evening as there’s more time.

My desired emotion for today is:
Meaningful.

I am a woman who:
Sets her own value.

Today I will let go of:
Waiting for others.

Today I choose to add:
Self preservation.

My wins, accomplishments, gratitudes for today:
I’m getting SOSI notes written up in my bigger note books so it’s been good to go over all the content again. This time, actually answering the questions properly.

The thoughts that support my celebrations:
Its helping figure a few things out and giving me new perspective.

I want to improve the following for tomorrow:
Motivation, valve and opportunity.

Words of advice, wisdom, encouragement, humour from my future self:
I’m the only one bothered about what I do, so I need to be in charge of any own destiny.